Wat is there to live for if u r not around?

GOTHIC!!! THE NEW GREEN!!

2007-08-13T18:24:00.000+08:00

hey my sexy people this is real n i m not kidding the earth is like going to be destroyed in the year 2012...n yes its like another 5 more yrs zomg...this is so retarded..n y do i say that? it is because it has been proven scientifically that a freaking planet call nibiru aka planet X...the 12th planet in our solar system...and yes its the 12th planet...omg den wat happen to the 10th/11th? i dun really no..but yes the 12th planet has been spotted going round the sun..n yes its the sun we see every day...astronomers have been talking about it seen the 1800s...yup they all say that there is a planet out there that is like cycling the sun but in a diff fashion from how the other 9 planets are...so anyways it is said that this planet is so coming back into the earth orbit...wat m i saying? i m saying that they freaking 12th planet is going to b like next to the earth during 2012....n y would we all die when that happen? simple rite? the planet gravitational force will b stronger den the sun because its closer to earth...this would momentarily cause the earth from rotating...wat m i saying? it mean earth will stop moving...n that would mean wat? means that u will b having day light for like foreva...n yup thats true cause u cant turn the earth so how to see the moon if its on the other side of the planet? ok so if that happens we r all going to die....estimated of 90% people will die in that 1 week...yes the earth is going to stop turning for 1 whole freaking week!! omg pls i hope it will b night like in sg when that happens haha not so hot...n can see stars...so yea..when all that happens there will b like other natural disasters happening because there is like issues with the moon n the tides n the winds...yup so we will just die...more info rite...there r videos on http://www.youtube.com/ that shows how this thing is going to happen...just search for nibiru or planet x...
ok so enough of the dying in 2012...we have to live our lifes man harlo haha...today is like not bad...wake up like 4+ am get rdy...sexy super tired..but ok... when to my friends place at yio chu kang stadium there 530am...start putting black nail polish...den people start to come...we had to like put lots of stuff...eye liner n stuff...so in the end...around like 7+ we all get rdy to go sch haha...yea we r going to b like in gothic wear n going to sch haha...wicked can so anyways we took cab down...reach sch sexy butt people all say we look sexy n duh we do haha...so yea need go teacher room get something walk to general office...dum dum dum...guess who we saw...the principal -.- den we were like GG liao man...but he just look at us n laugh haha....so it was cool la...we paraded around the sch canteen...haha let everyone see our sex y outfit...come on la its like wear ur home clothes day -.- y wear like those ugly shit clothes haha...wear something diff la lik eu cant wear in sch de...dumb man u wear those norm de sat ccome sch also can la -.- dumb seh...haha ok nvm so yea we had like black lipstick too so really sexy...but super hot can haha i mean come on its like wearing long sleeves but lucky rolled up..but still super hot with the sexy tie on...so yup we were all so hyped haha even our CT wore like black same as us...sexy la...haha so anyways we all lik esuper happy la cause everyone giving us attention haha...yup teachers were like shock n almost died...principal/the other 2 vp also walking around us alot...den the sch teacher incharge for photos took our photos haha like duh nice wat y dun take haha...so yea n dum dum dum came the prize for the best dress...we were like sia la how seh later lose...den so ps...haha but in the end we won la haha come on la how can not win u tell me...everyone wear all the stupid home clothes haha..so not unique can haha so ok think someone like keep pestering me to finish up so i just upload some pics...haha
the vampire lords hahathe vampire people with econs teacher ms lee...dang wats up with the smiling? gothic got smiling de? like harlo ugly -.-
the vampire lord has awaken...the vampire lords going for the residing hairline maths teacher mr kwang...this is vampire lord aka my chemical romance...ok pls ignore the guy on the extreme left he like outcast cause he is so -.- i dunno wierd n retarded n so bao huiish minus the gayness...vampire lord strikes again!!!! Vampire Lord....Kperson saying...GOTHIC IS THE NEW GREEEEN!!! I NEED UR BLOOD!!!

Sexy butt!!

2007-07-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

ok me no very long nv blog n stuff...so wat the heck i thot..i mean nobody really come here see rite? haha den i found out i had a tagboard n got people ask me post...so ok loh haha here i m posting a blog entry....

anyways its been like super long n stuff so lots of things happened...many things that i wish didnt have n many things i wished would happen again...haha watever la so lets just get to it shall we? haha

lets see...hmmm A lvls is coming so fast...my first half of the year was like totally crap...didnt do well for comman test as usual...had a great time at dance i guess with my friends whee!~ i miss u guys so much!!! been like so long since i last saw u guys!!! argh...so yea anyways haha SFY came n yea super nervous...but in the end it went well! haha i still remember the next day...economics lecture....jim n i sitting together as usual...den i was like kinda dozing off...until i saw the msg on jim phone...i told him someone msg him...den we were like zomg izzit like the results? haha so he read the msg n whoopee!!! haha it was n guess wat?! GOLD WITH HONOURS OK!!! DUN PLAY PLAY!!! hahar i totally like stunned la dunno wat to do...den started spreading to the people around us haha we were all so happy la...den he sms like every dance member...in the lecture there were like a few others...haha omg i still remember my sexy ish baby reaction...she totally screamed in the econs lecture haha the lecturer -.- mrs sim was like totally angry n stuff haha but wat the heck we shud b happy la!!!

moving on to the next big thing that happened...hmmm well i cant remember much haha...the most recent one would have to b nicc's birthday...she better b like super happy ok!! haha i was like thinking wat to do for her birthday...n in the end i thot of buying cupcakes as the birthday cake....but ninny said y buy them when u can make them! so i was ok if i make u better come help!! haha so yea the other peeps all came to my house n we made cupcakes!! well here is the pic on the day of her birthday haha it was like outside her house...but i tell u its like the best ever ok!! haha its super sweet n nice!! whee!~ considering the testing bath we made tasted kinda erm...bitter lol so yea bla bla bla presents opening n stuff...ok my balloon thing was a flop seh...how stupid was i?! omg...i actually thot that blowing balloons can actually like float -.- dang so cheated sia lol den i asked shiela come early help me blow...so sry!!! in the end i was late haha..so anyways we blew some balloons n wrote stuff on it...but it started popping lol so yea we gave up....anyways we were suppose to give her a surprise n duh it was like the best surprise ever...because the cupcakes were like the beginning...so we "blindfolded" her...but ok she was like no i look so ugly in the blindfold...so she said she will take her jacket n cover her face all the way...haha well not bad she was kinda gd...didnt take a peek haha...the bus journey was super long la...doh not forgetting the overhead bridge she had to cross haha..super funny cause she cant see so we must like guide her...so was like ok a few more steps n stuff...so yea well we reached vivocity...haha can guess where we going? haha so yea scared alter she will like hear any announcements we decided to get her to listen to her ipod...bought the tix n stuff n off we go!!! haha the new train thingy to sentosa is kinda nice i guess...but like lame 4 stops in total only? lol so yea we stop like abit off...den need to like walk all the way to the hotel...yes hotel lol we gonan over nite at sentosa yay!!! lol the walk to the hotel was damn funny n long...because there is this bird cage...its liek super uper enormous n all the birds were making sounds...poor nicc thot we went to the zoo!! hahar so yea thats gd she still dunno the surprise yet haha so we reached the hotel...dang was it nice...really a santuary sia super sexy...n the floor we stayed dang was just nice where the pool was man it look just super great!! hgaha...dang the room was even better...haha there is like a glass panel between the bed n the toilet!! uber sexy la can see watever happening in the toilet haha...ok i no me only guy out of like hmm 8-10 other girls? haha but duh got this thingy that fogs up the glass so cant really see nuts la...so yea hah it was great...was getting hungry so me n bec went to wash some green apples we found haha n ate them...sour but gd haha...n den it was tiem to go swim!!! haha well most of us swam...it was not bad ba...since its like i so long nv go swim liao...haha so yea after that we went back n like chill in the room b4 we went to the beach for some vollayball n dog n bone fun!! haha...ok it was damn sad my team lost but nvm...haha had great fun there...n we went to buy the tix for the musical fountain...6 bucks ok..lol but yea wat to do birthday girl wan to see ma...haha but it was a surprise la since we said earlier that we didnt wan to watch haha..so yea dang the tix sell so fast...left only the 830 one..so watever got it anyways...ok so the thing was kinda lame haha cause starting they were singing songs but me n bec haha so yea nice fire n water stuff happening..its quite cool...n end off with fireworks...lots of singing haha....

In Love again?

2006-10-22T00:06:00.000+08:00

haha watsup people...been so long since i last posted...so anyways this blog is mostly where i pour all my sadness n stuff haha...but this post is not la...just wan to say a few things about wat happen to me n all...so anyways i just wan to say that i m in love again!! haha yea that is like shit la but yea...NO i m not attached...just like someone k? haha dun ask me who cause i wont say haha...

so yea since this blog is where i put my sadness...i have another blog where my happiness goes to!! haha yup yup...the blog link is www.kand3k.blogspot.com yea...that is like kclub blog!! i m kperson btw haha...so yea...haha yes i seldom post cause i have been super busy...JC life is like that so wat to do haha...so i just wan to say that i love my class 1S16...will always remember u people n will cherish the times we spent together....well here is a clip made by my classmates...really love it...hope we will all promote together to 2S16!!

so yea for those who didnt see the performance by my sch dance n cheerleading on teacher's day...here is the vid...hope u guys enjoy it...

DANCE-D~FUSIONZ

Cheerleading-OutLawZ

another video i would like to put up would b a cheerleading team who is champions in allstars nationals cheerleading competition...they r really cool so yea...erm yea can see the diff from SRJc cheerleading team rite? haha but yea just a few months old rite? i think not bad le ok! haha...so yea...

btw i changed my blogskin...doh u shud have known le la..hope u guys like it haha...

Quote of the Day..."the day i saw u...i knew it was meant to be"

Rest in peace....I love u...

2006-09-14T19:47:00.000+08:00

wow i didnt expect to feel so sad n almost to tears when i saw this phrase on my bro msn nick..."rest in peace...i love u..." i could feel the sadness...suddenly everything just came rushing into me....wow i thot i would nv feel pain anymore...but i guess the numbness have since been gone...when i first heard that my bro's grandpa was sick i prayed for him...but i didnt expect that while i was celebrating my birthday...a tragic incident happened...his grandpa just went n nv came back...his 3rd stroke hit him bad...when i realise it on monday nite at 1140pm...it hit me really bad...i nv could imagine that would happen...i m sure he didnt take it well too...seeing that he didnt come to sch on monday...n that he wasnt himself when i met him during lunch on tues...he seem so lifeless like everything he had just disappeared...although he was still smiling...but i no inside...he was really heartbroken...wednesday came...i decided to go to his grandpa's wake...accompanied by my aunt...we both went...the atmosphere was really quiet...at that time there were really few people around...i could only see his dad sis aunt n uncle's friend...so me n aunty just sat there talking n waiting for my bro to come down after his bathe....as usual it took about 45-1hr...haha yes he bathes supse duper long...so yea he came down...we went to pay respect...den we sat down n started chatting...o man i was so shock la...the freaking nurse was the cause of his death...how can it freaking b possible....but yes it did...anyways just stayed tehre to help out n all till around 7+ den we took bus home...sigh today morning if i m not wrong was the cremation of his grandpa...i guess he would not b 4gotten...although he is gone but i could feel that he is apart of cedric my bro...i hope we could all take a moment of silence...n pray....
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well i would like to dedicate this song to my bro..hope he will stay happy...we will all miss ur grandpa!! >.<

Christina Aguilera - Hurt

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Quote of the Day..."Rest in peace...i luv u..."

Wow wat a joke...i was living in a nitemare that seemed liked a dream i once wanted...

2006-07-22T00:38:00.000+08:00

haha didnt expect to b bloggin here again so quickly...its less den 24hrs...haha so yea wow wat a life i have...a dream that felt so real was actually a nitemare in disguise...was it really true? that we were never meant to b? i understand u really miss him...i guess i was wrong to just jump in n make u love me...wish u all the best ba i will nv 4get abt all the happy times we had together...dun cry...dun weep...dun have sleepless nights just because u think its ur fault...baby its has never been ur fault...life would resume like it use to b...but with something u have of me...dun 4get how much fun we had...dun 4get abt me...i will still b there for u...all u need is to ask...i will nv 4get abt u...i really do love u...

so yea haha today was really crappy...woke up n knew something was gonna happen...just really didnt feel like somethign gd was gonna happen...i dunno y but yea i guess i was rite again...darkness has found me once again...i thot i had ran far enough hide in the person i truely loved...so anyways it was just crappy la i was tired n the thot of the recent event i could tell u werent rdy...u had something kept in u...n i guess i could make u change but i guess i really couldnt...so sry...so yea i just couldnt pay attention the whole day...den lunch time came...i heard the song "KISS GOODBYE" hehe how wonderful...it was a great timing i was about to cry la...lucky i was able to control n just let it go..went toilet n came back to listen music n slp...n wish it was just a nightmare and i would awake from it...but no it was just crap...so ok loh nvm go for chinese lesson...was actually abit more cheerful..but yea den the old chinese teacher came back wan to see me n my friend...ok loh go see..still in a bad mood...say principal wan to see us...for me cause of that incident awhile back...so i was like damn la...must come huant me agian...den really depressed loh...about wat is going to happen...like so many thing gonna happen...family issues again studies blah blah blah wat not? everything in my life is wrong anyways so yea...i want to go out n jump haha but yea changed man remember? so i just sat there quietly at the back with shin ee n aslin...but den yea the new chinese teacher had to give us this 2pid thing ask us wat we wna to b happy n all...den i was like wtf? n everything came flooding my puny brain...wat happen next? u shud no la overload my brain exploded n yea started to cry...luckily not many people knew only the 2 sitting beside me...i just couldnt control loh...so i jsut sob silently...wishing the teacher wont see me...dun wan to make a scene again...o well glad it happen ok...so yea everything was getting better after the cry ba...but yea reach home blah blah blah...den yea the call came talked n cried again...was rite we broke up..how psychic am i?

here i am blogging making my life abit better by letting it out...i relaly wish it wouldnt happen...mayb i shud have ask wat was wrong...and i would mayb find out later...but i guess if i did that...i would ahve died by now...the pain would have been worse...so anyways yea i need go do project work again haha how sad loh...so much work n all the crap now this...heh life is really unfair n it has to always happen to me...so ok loh i have already undergone so much...hope i would like get better soon n all...

Quote of the Day..."love was nv there...y didnt u say from the very start? i guess i have rushed things...really sorry to break ur heart"

M i that useless?

2006-07-19T21:42:00.000+08:00

haha wow its fucking long since i actually blogged here la...and if u all still dunch know...this is where i put my sadness in...n guess wat i m bloging again...

ever ask how useful/unuseful u are? shud this ever b judged by others or urself? how the fuck can they judge u when they dun even no ur true u? do u really thing that wat u r showing to others is ur true u? how the fuck can they judge u on that? its not even accurate la fuck...so wat u cant do something means others can? wat logic is that? if u have so confidence in urself doing it den i sadly have to say that u shud fucking leave me alone for bring me down...cause i dun fucking wan to be...who the fuck r u to shout n command me to do things is my life urs? u r not even fucking related to me...u r just someone whom i respect...but i guess i was wrong...u dun even respect urself...u dun even trust in ur own capabilities...GOD made us for a reason...n looking down on others is not one of the reasons...losing faith in urself is like not having GOD in u...it is because he gave u life...if u doubt urself...u have doubt GOD...if u think u cant do something...u actually doubt GOD's true ability in u...wat more must i say? u have doubt GOD n to tell u the truth i shud b the one advicing u wat to do n not u advicing me wat i can do but u think i cant...

do u no wat X men truly means? its not just about mutants n all those fighting n special powers they have...the producer of X men actually wans to protray about homosexuality...if u didnt know...prof X(suspected to ba a gay), magneto(open gay...meaning openly shows that he is gay)...nightcrawler(open bisexual) these are jsut some of the few characters that sets the show going...mainly magneto is the one that wants to fight for gay rights prof X wan to do the same thing but in a more gradual pace...the way homosexuality is seen in real life is equal to the way these "mutants" are treated in X men...being disregarded...treated badly and many more...that is wat the current situation is...it is a form of discrimination...against people who are not normal...like the mutants these people only found out around puberty(to know more here is a link to a web that explain it http://www.fridae.com/lifestyle/article.php?reviewid=160&viewarticle=1&searchtype=all )...so anyways the point about saying all this is to show that discrimination hurts others...n in my case...being discriminated as a person who cant do anything is just plain fucked up...i dun have to get this treatment in the outside world ok? i have enough of it at home le...y make things worse? izzit real fun to do thigns like that? m i really that useless in ur point of view? if i really have den sadly u dun really know me that well...anyways i shant care about u anymore say watever u wan if u still take me as a friend...i m happy for ur concern but no thank you...keep watever u have to urself.

Quote of the Day..." treated/accused/killed/condamned for the wrong reasons...live for the dreamx i wan to accomplish"

Life is FILLED with obstacles

2006-06-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

Its seems like life have taken a twist...i for one have erm turn to someone i dun really know anymore...but still i guess its for the better...more happy n all heh well cant u tell? haha i m like so happy to have people for love n care for me...even if no one does...GOD still LOVES ME!! haha jamie u so influenced me haha...

anyways i hope that we all can pray for my brother who is erm having some family issues...parents gonna divorce...den money problems...not being able to study cause of all these...i really wish that these problems would go away...i hate people to b sad...i hate it even more when they r my close ones...so depressing can? y do people wan to do this? to hurt their love ones? if u were to have an affair y bother marry someone? fuck u people la...if u really a playboy den go fool around n stop hurting others...having so many kids le...still cant make u not love the one u marry to? wat is this world coming to la...is there really no love? r men made to do all these? cant they control themselves? is there really no way to resist temptations? y cant people tell their love ones their problems? den they can find a way to solve it...n not let it lead to something so disasterous...

Let us pray...
lord our god i hope u could call forth thy holy spirit and bless my brother n his family members...give them the strenght to overcome this obstacle...n that the father wont ask for money...so that my brother n his sisters could continue to study overseas...n that his mom would get a new job...n i really wish that in the end...they would become a happy family together again...thank you lord for all the countless blessings u have showered upon us...i wish that u could have them...n let them no that u would b there for them...amen

Quote of the Day..."life is so meaningless when people u love leave u"

Welcome to my life...life as a hollow...

2006-05-17T21:05:00.000+08:00

WELCOME TO MY LIFE (Simple Plan)

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sigh y can i do? talking to u is like talking to a wall...the cold answers i get is just so...u use to warm my heart...n we use to chat so much...but now...all u do is give me one word answers...i really dunno wat to do now...i really wan to move on...but u just kept coming back to my mind...this isnt the first time it happened...but i guess it has gotten worse...i really dunno wat to do now...the more u shant me away...the more i wan to b with u...the more i cant let u go...but y? y cant i just let u go? waiting for u for so long...all u have done was to hurt me...break me up...n blow me away...i guess i have my own share of faults...but still...i never let u feel sad...till now...the recent events...but still u cant forgive me for all that? or did u like u said u have forgiven me...but gonna break our relationship we had for so long...this bond...i thot u were someone close to me..someone to b able to open my mind n soul to u...but now i know...i was just living in my illusional retarded mind...how stupid am i? thinking that i could make u change...make u like me...make u someone that i could b with...but now i guess its too late...i have gotten hurt so badly...i really cant take the pain...it really hurt me so bad...seeing u cry just break my heart...but i cant do anything to make u happy...all i could do was to put my arms around u...mkaing u feel more secure...making u feel like and angel was there...making u feel the peace n tranquility...but still inside u...u just couldnt forget that person just like i do towards u...i really miss u...i wish i could b u one day...all i ask was to b u one day...n u b me...mayb u would feel the pain i m feeling when u do this to me...y m i crying so much...when u dun even care? izzit really that hard? cant we b like last time? even if u werent mine...at the very least...b who u use to b...i really miss u...the times we had...y did u have to change?...i guess u were serious about when u said either this or our relationship would b gone...but i didnt do anything else to deserve all this rite? i said i was sorry u forgiven me...and now this...where is the logic? so by saying i m sorry u just ditched me? m i not someone close to u no more? m i just a passerby? mayb next time when i walk pass u in town...u wouldnt realise that it was me...u just dun understand me...after being so close...more den brothers...u cant even understand me?...u no how i m at home...being a loner and all...there is no one to care for me...u no how much i feel when i m home...u knew so much about me n yet u can just give me some love? just a simple hi each day could make me happy for the rest of my life...izzit that hard? i was so happy when u came into my life...but now i just realise u were just another problem diguised...i thot u would understand...but i guess u never knew...i just cant live without u...i really dun wan to cry anymore...there is really no point...but still i cry...y? because i still care n love u with all my heart...a few people has already asked me to move on...but i just cant...i have tried in sec sch...but still it came back...n now u do this to me...such pain u have caused...cant u feel it? mayb u really did 4get about me...

Quote of the Day..."missing u always...pls come back to me..."

life in the limbo world

2006-05-14T22:08:00.000+08:00

these days have passed so fast with nth but pms all day...just didnt feel gd abt everything...its like being loved but not loved at all...loneliness has been there to stay for so long...n nobody ever came up to ask loneliness to F*ck off...nobody ever talk to me when i m down...not even...wat was i to do...i guess u r still mad over that incident...i m truly sorry about it didnt expect something this great to happen...but still my actions has caused these consequences...its not like i wan to but i just couldnt help it...i guess it was because of the loneliness since that made me wan to b with u even more...but i guess i was just desperate too crazy i dunno wat else to say...but i m sorry...i really hope u would read this n really truly forgive me and lets talk n be with each other again...because from wat i have been going thru i think u haven really 4given me even though u said u did...we hardly talk now...i really dunno wat to say to u...i have always thot of talking to u but everytime i m abt to say something i just close the msg window...cause i m unsure...confused...n wondered whether wat ur response would b...would it b hostile or would u b like last time...how we 2 were best of friends...not best friends but more den that...i treated u differently from the others...i didnt expect u to the same all i wanted was u to b happy but it seems like i made things worse...now i dun dare to talk to u...even when u r down u wouldnt talk to me...u wouldnt tell me wats bothering u...i have always been there for u...but not talk to me now? izzit really that hard? i understand mayb u just wan to 4get...4get that anything ever happened...but to tell u the truth u cant...cause this is life...no matter how much u wan to 4get...the more it will come n huant u...i no cause i have been thru it since u got angry and 4gotten about me...first u were angry den u were mad den u were ignoring...now u just chat with me...but no sooner we would start to argue over small matters...it really saddens me...our convosations cut froma few hours to mere seconds...even saying hi was so hard...u have been so cold towards me...i no i m wrong...i really wish we could start anew...i truly dun wan this to end like this...its really unthinkable but still its happening...i m sorry...

sigh i couldnt believe how low my morale was...how brittle i was...i didnt no i was that down...i thot i was still ok...being able to laugh n all in sch...but i guess i was wrong...this has not been the first time i have been wrong about myself...i have always been since i gave my heart away...now i m a person without a heart...a hollow(bleach fan alert!) a living being that feeds on people's spirit n be happy about it...i wonder who would b the death god that comes to save me...rescue me from this world...from this way of living...i really wan to go to soul society...i dun wan to stay in this world to hurt others...i dun wan to see others hurt n not able to help them...i really wan to b saved...being there for others is one thing...but will others b there for me? nobody ever will b there for me...nobody knows how i feel...mayb not even u...since u would never understand how i would feel...keeping to ur principles was that wall between u n me...now i understand y we were never meant to b...all u did care for was that other person whom ignores u shants u away...but now i m glad that that person aint doing the same thign u r doing to me now...i m glad that u 2 r happy...seeing one of u sad would mean that i would b sad...mayb thats y i can never leave this world...mayb that is the reason y i have become a hollow...i could leave this world because i m unsure whether u would stay happy...i wan to b there when u r down...i dun wan to hurt u...but i dun wan u to b hurt...

wat happen on thursday was quite unexpected...a school is like a nother home to me...that is where i can b myself where the people who care for me are...teachers included...but when we have spend so much time together...it has been at least 2months...n not knowing my name yet...its just retarded...ok u may call me other names...n say sorry...but come on think la...would u like the feeling? imagine someone u known for sometime n keeps calling u a diff name...how would u feel...it sux ok...yea yea i may have been unreasonable to rebel but i was not thinking can? who really cares about u anyways...but the way u talk just remind me of thigns i dun wan to...n u had to remind me of it...its sad enough that no one love me...n u had to like make it as though i m the root too all problems i no i m can? must u rub it in? seeing those people i have hurt is really enough liao loh...i dun have to let u tell me off can? i already cry at nite y must u let me cry in the morning...do i really have that much tears to let out to let the world no how sad n F*ck up my life is? must i? m i really that perthetic? crying at every moment...but i guess its my life...all i do is cry n wish that it would b over after that...but it doesnt...i wonder wat would happen tml...i guess i would just go see the principal...den go straight for counciling again...sux can...if i really wan to say dont u think i would ahve already told u...y do i need a councilor...really dun wish that to happen...n pls dun freaking call my parents...if u do i seriously will kill u...i hate it when i m doing something wrong n u peeps bring in someone close to come torture me...its freaking irritating...well see how things goes tml...it would b another change in my life...mayb i shud just go back to the old me...quiet n just sits at the corner...not caring about wats around me...i mean this is life rite? wat more cna u ask for...being able to see those u love...and making them happy is gd enough...love makes the world go round...

Quote of the Day..."saying "i love u" is just words...but do u really mean it? will u really love the person to the end of time?"

I m sorry

2006-05-09T19:03:00.000+08:00

didnt expect thigns to happen this way...i m really sorry for wat i have caused...i really didnt expect it to turn out this way...hope nth bad has happened or anything that would cause anyone to b hurt...b shant away b ignored...i no that i have cause unhappiness

i hope that the love would continue to fill this unloved world...cause love makes the world go round...i really dun expect the world to come to a stand still...if it does...dying would just b the next best thing..

once again i m terribly sorry for wat i have done...for whoever that saw my previous post which i have deleted i hope u would keep it to urself n not ask anything about the matter unless the people r willing to share...i m truly sorry for everything...SORRY!

Quote of the Day..."seems like i have done yet another 2pid thing that made everyone unhappy..."

somethings about myself..

2006-05-02T21:11:00.000+08:00

You scored as Fallen Angel. You my friend are a FallenAngel. You were amongst the closest to God, yet love led you down a path of self-destruction. You find yourself crying a lot, because of the pains of this world. Yes it is very crewl, yet you know there isn't a thing you can do about it. Follow your heart and you will find some of your former happiness.

Fallen Angel

75%

Vampire

50%

You are a Vampiric Elf!

17%

You are a Demon

Black Witch

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You scored as Mysterious. You wish to hide who you are from all those around you. You find it very hard to trust people. You also may enjoy the fun that comes from playing mind games with others around you.My advice Get out there and reveal the true you if only to one person!

Mysterious

75%

Eyes full of Pain

75%

Passion

67%

Diamond Eyes

33%

What do your eyes reveal about you?(PICS!)
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You scored as Emo Kid. You listen to emo. 'Nuff said. You know how to dress. You usually feel as if nobody understands you.

Emo Kid

73%

Geek/Nerd

53%

Punk

47%

Hot

40%

Jock

33%

"Ghetto"

33%

Stoner

20%

Loner

20%

Goth

Prep

What Highschool Clique Do You Belong To?
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wow didnt expect the quizes to b quite true...mayb thats y i m so retarded...no life guy...wishing something that could enver happen...anyways i guess i m over it ba...over everything...by den again..it could never leave me...sigh on the way back...this lonely bus ride home...while waiting for 162 at bishan market...sigh was the worse time of my life la...just kept thinking n thinking...y my life sux so badly...y so many things happen to me..n not a clue y it did...n wat i have learnt from it...lost in this world...dunno y things happen...sigh wishing thigns would change for the better...at least to my favour ba...but of course life is unfair it would never b the way u wan it...life sux...it never will b the same again without u by my side...

Quote of the Day..."i think i need someone to love me n give me a hug...so missing it..."

Now i understand y u r so sad...

2006-04-29T13:16:00.000+08:00

Fort Minor - Where'd U Go

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after wat have happen these few days i finally realise how much it hurts to b ignored by ur loved ones...i realise how much u have been going thru...this horrible times of ur life alone...being ignored by the one u love...i finally realise how it feels...when u did the same thing to me...i guess i m really that uncomparable...i have step into the world of nothingness...in hope of finding something...that i truely love...but the nothingness has eaten me a whole...lost in a world of nothingness...with no place to go...with only one thing in mind...to b with u always...but ur love was never there...searching for something that doesnt exist...leaving me all alone once again...in hope for finding that love...

yesterday was just bad couldnt do anything but to lay in bed...wishing that nth had ever happened...wishing u were beside me...wishing i would b there for u...wishing u would never be like this to me...wishing that i had not done that...wishing for ur forgiveness...wishing for ur acknowledgement...wishing this would all b a nightmare...

today is the day that my cute birthday present...my other love one...left without a trace...without a word of goodbye...i really cant bare this anymore...i m sorry paris for causing so much trouble...i wish u were still around...i wish i could find u...i wish u were still with me in that cage of urs...i m sorry...i didnt mean to 4get to close ur gate...but i was too depressed n thinking of things that i 4got about it...i m really sorry...where ever u are...i wish u would live happily in soul society...i wish that i would see u there one day...n that i wont become a hollow n huant the ones i love...i m truely sorry...pls come back to me...i m missing u...R.I.P Paris DOB unknown DOD 29/04/06

losing a love one is so hard to let go...i wish that i wont b like this when u go...mayb i would b crazy enough to die on the same day as u...now i understand y u have been like this...i cant take it anymore...i really cant...another blow like this i may just run away n rot somewhere...ignoring wat is happen doesnt help...it just makes things worse when u let it build up in u...there r people who care for u...just dun let them worry...n ignoring them wont help...it would just make them more concern n anxious to no wat is wrong...i wonder if u ignore other people too or its just me...but i understand y u do...i hope i would see u one last time to b able to talk to u...to make sure everything is alright...

Quote of the Day..."God in heaven...god above...pls protect...a friend i love...sent with a smile...sealed with this kiss...i love my fren...who's reading this..."

Ne-Yo - So Sick

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"So Sick"

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger than this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
I'm letting go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin' you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?

I m sorry

2006-04-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu

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You scored as Suicide. Your death will be suicide. What more can I say? Fact: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If you want to know hwo you will commit suicide, take a look at your second highest percentage on the bar graphs.

Suicide

100%

Bomb

87%

Posion

80%

Disappear

80%

Gunshot

73%

Stabbed

67%

Cut Throat

47%

Suffocated

33%

Eaten

33%

Disease

33%

Accident

20%

Natural Causes

20%

Drowning

13%

How Will You Die??
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You scored as Outgoing. You outgoing and you have a very friendly personality.

Outgoing

88%

Nice

75%

Immature

63%

Fun

56%

Shy

31%

mean

31%

Dramatic

19%

what kind of person are you? (shy,outgoing,fun,mean,immature,dramatic or nice?)
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You scored as Desent human being. You are human. You care about other people and you care about yourself. You just live your life and enjoy it.

Saint

79%

Desent human being

79%

The Devil

33%

Going to Hell

21%

How evil are you?
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heh i guess its really true that i would die by suiciding...will i have to b so dramatic just for u to understand my love for u? if its really needed...i guess i really would...but den i hope u wouldnt cry for me...because i no i will see u again in the next life...n mayb den will we b together forever...

Quote of the Day..."i loved u since the start of time...but will u b with me 4eva to the end of time?"

Can love make me wanna live again?

2006-04-17T18:46:00.000+08:00

Fort Minor - Where'd U Go

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Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself trying to stay the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbecue up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Halloween with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once and a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find that you have something to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you've got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

well i guess i was wrong about everything...about love...about life...about y the world goes round...does it really revolves because of love? i dun think so...well wat to do? izzit so hard to show that u love someone? even if u cant show it cant u just say u do? izzit so hard to understand? must we all b the same? must we all follow the same rules to lead our life? cant there b a change? a change so that love can continue once again? izzit really so hard? is there really no love which u can share with me? is there only tears? mayb thats y i m for...to comfort u when u r down...to make u happy once again...to help make wat seems wrong rite again...n mayb that is all i can have n will receive from u...n mayb thats y i love u so much n wan more den that...to b able to b with u foreva...to take care of u...to make u happy...to make those that hurt u go away...but i guess i m not gd enough for u...our bond or watever u think it is...is just about being a friend...but i dun wan to b a mere friend i wan to b someone more den that...

where have u been? i have been waiting for u for so long...mayb thats y the lvoe is building up so much that i have given them away...to someone else...but still u r the one i truly love...the love i give others r mere love as a friend...i really mean it...i hope u would come back...come back to me...n b my one n only...i could never have dreamt such a wonderful dream...but it seem like this dream was actually a nightmare...i hope u dun have it too...cause if u do den...i would b that shining armour that would rescue u from this nightmare...n lets hope we could live together 4eva...

mayb its the time we had together...been sometime since we actually had time to talk...and spend time together...mayb because of that...n the new people we are with now...mayb because of that...u have lost the love that i dreamt would n could b found in u...the love for me...but i guess...it would never b the same again...i miss the times we had...i miss the togetherness...i miss everything...

Quote of the day..."Why should i suffer for a Love that i will never ever get? Why should i Love you? When all i get is tears at night? I ask you this because
even I, don't know."

CandyMan Dead or Alive? in a dilemma rebirith? or no rebirth?

2006-04-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

Ray J - One Wish

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"One Wish"

Damn baby
Just don't understand where we went wrong
I gave you my heart
I gave you my soul
I gave you...

As a matter of fact I was the one who said I love you first
It was about eight years ago, don't act like you don't know
We were sittin' at home in your mama's livin' room
Cause, we couldn't be alone
See your mama knew I was something else, she knew how I felt
Back then we were in school; and that's your favourite excuse
Growin' up I was a fool; and I can't lie I'm missing you
Listen and don't trip
I think I need a bottle with a genie in it
Here's my wish list

First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time

If I had one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish
One wish, one wish, one wish

Now tell me is this the only way I can get you right back in
If so then searchin' I’ll go, then I can have you for sho
Then you’ll be loving me, holding me, kissing me
So girl don’t tell me what I’m feeling is make believe
I swear if I lose a second chance with you
I wouldn’t know what to do
I’d probably check myself into some kind of clinic
I couldn’t be alone because without you I’m sick
Here’s my wish list

First one, I would create a heart changing love
Second one, I'll take yours and fill it all up
Third one, but I don’t need a lot of wishes cause I’ll be okay if I get one

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time
If I had one wish

I don’t even know how we ended upon this road
And, even though we are grown, Girl I just want you to know

If I had one wish, we would be best friends
Love would never end, it would just begin
If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you
If I had one wish, we would run away
Making love all day, have us a baby
If I had one wish, I’d make you my whole life
And you’d be my wife, make it right this time

Sorry mal this wont b a happy post either >_< sigh so yea er mayb till life become more fair will i actually cheer up heh =]=]=]=]=]=]

life has yet come up another way to torture me...mayb i shudnt have taken the path it just let me to a more complicated one...izzit really that hard to ask for a simple life down a rd where someone i truly love will b with me all the time? rather den to live in a life of denial...wishing wat i wan most truly to happen n yet it is of cause just a dream...wat can i say life is but a dream...slp on n mayb that dream will become a beautiful wan or wake to face reality...life that wont b the same as those beautiful dreams u had...this is life...wat i m living with is not a dream but reality...which hurts me more n more...my heart now shattered into many pieces however...it is fix but this 2...n whom i have given my heart away to...wat has become of me? m i really such a loser? or izzit just a way to test wat i really m? cause if it is den i think i would rather jump den face the consequences...really sorry but i just dun wan to choose between u 2...cause i really cherish the times we had together n......well i guess u already no wat i would say to you...but i dunno y i m feeling this i thot i have already moved on but no...it has come back to huant me...and now with a price to pay...a more dangerous wager...which could cause someone's heart to b broken...n i really dun wish this to happen pls y must it b me that choose?...i thot u would b happy with someone else but den after wat u said to me...i really wan u back...blame it on jealousy...blame it on the damn luck that i m fickle minded...but truly i love u...but this time it is really a choice in which i have to make...cause i have another which i truly love...and now this is wat i call..."you and I collide" its like fate but izzit really fate? can fate really crate such and opportunity? i m really sorry...but i guess i wont wna to continue this...i will b sitting out this time...mayb just for now so i can rethink of wat i m gonna do...love has once again cause pain n suffering...mayb its not that bad...but an illusion to cover up the real happiness in me...i really dunno...lost and confused...in this diliemma...

Quote of the Day..."I really love u but I love u too...wat m i to do when i love u both...will u accept me still? or will this change everything that i have done for you? mayb u dun see but...nvm lets just keep it to myself....lost in this world of nothingness...I LOVE YOU"

Wats the point of a rebirth when i dun wanna live again?

2006-04-01T19:39:00.000+08:00

Eminem - When I'm Gone

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wat day it is today? its april fools...come on tell me this crap is just an april fools joke and we can cont our miserable life...cause i just cant believe it is happening to me...that fucking bastard ruin people's life once again i think we shud just go kill him or something...wats the point of having him? he is just the person that puts food on the table...in exchange of that..i get to b tortured by him...is this fucking fair? i hate this...i hate everything that is happening to me...wat is there to live when everything filled with happiness is just sucked away from u...a dream u build with all this love...just destroyed because of this monster that is building up in u...guess wat it not others...its u...its the hatred u have grown in u that make u hurt others n urself...mayb i shudnt just live in this world...wat is the point when everytime i m down people just come to hear u out but in the end it happens again...its just a cycle...a neverending cycle of hatred...n destruction...

i m sorry but this is once again the last straw la...like wat is wrong with u? its sis birthday celebration for heaven's sake...wat is wrong with u...must we do this everytime something big is about to happen? something special...wat to do life is just unfair it...at least it has always been for me...mayb life shud just end in this world...war shud just break out n millions n billions of people start dying...n mayb after that...we shall all realise wat love is truely here for...to bring everyone together to show how we r suppose to live this life of ours...mayb den we wont even exsist in this world...because of the hatred we shall bring our exsistance to n end...i really hope that would happen...hatred is meant to stay...its part of our lifes...but love can overcome it...but nobody chooses that path...y? cause hatred is and easier path to walk...but would n easier path b the correct path to take?

Candyman Dead or Alive?

2006-03-31T19:46:00.000+08:00

Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu

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Life is but a dream waking up will just make u face reality...doing so just make u wonder y u truely belong to this dreadful world...izzit really that hard to get someone to u no better? i thot it was so easy...just a simple hi can make a person notice u...but wat else do u have to do to make them realise u like them? mayb doing crazy stuff or just some impulse of calling the person will make them no u relaly like them...but wat if they think u r just plain wtf? as in wats with the sudden call...i think they will just hate u more or something la...name u a stalker or something...but wat to do life is like that wat...mayb its because i m lost in between a dream n reality...mayb its because i lost my life...my heart...i brain...thats y i have been doing things all wrong...not only making things worse n hurting myself...but hurting others in the extend to do something i thot was just a way to make u understand me better...but mayb i have overdone it...mayb thats y i cant understand u...n y i cant talk to u...mayb its because i have always been jealous...n just enver let it b shown...n now i m slowly letting it out and everyone thinks i m mad...crazy...retarded...ghost...jian nan ren...wat else? many more to come but wats the point of listing them? they r just words...meaningless without the true meaning of wat the person was tryin to say...it does hurt some way or another...but its because of this pain i feel that mak eme realise i m not dreaming...but living in this dying world...n the loneliness...jealousness just make this scar of mine reopen...making me feel how i shud become who i was once again...mayb that would change the way people think of me...n mayb just amyb the pain will go away...

y must people hurt each other so much when u people no u truely love each other? izzit a tradition that everyone must hurt someone at least once to really see who they truely love n cherish? to see who r those that really come n help u n take care of u when u r down? must we always go to the extend of feeling pain n despair to realise how love was wat we were fighting for...n was willing to give or receive but just didnt do it den? i m really sad n lost as to y we live in this world...izzit because we have been send here to look fo rsomething that we truely cherish? n would that b LOVE? will LOVE really set things straight?

many things to say but i guess it shud just remain in my head...wat m i to do? no one truely understands me...mayb its because i m different...mayb because i just dun wan to b like other people...mayb its because i was never meant to b in this world...

things i wish would last 4eva...

Quote of the Day..."start loving stop fighting...love makes the world go round...fighting just causes hatred...hatred brings unhappiness...unhappiness makes the world stop...n when the world stops...time is still...n when time is still...u will realise how regretful u r for not loving the ones u truely care for..."

Is there life after death?

2006-03-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

sorry i really do...ever since i stop posting my post...i think lesser people would get hurt n mayb people would not think that my life is so screwed...but now u people would no haha wat a contradicting sentence...but seriously...y make people worry? i mean nobody really cares about me rite? wat i have heard from u people r just words...would u really do wat u say when i m about to jump of a building? would u b the one pulling me back or just standing there shouting at me n telling me not to jump...mayb when a real disaster strike den will i find the people who really cared for me...sigh but that is the saddest thing on earth dont u think? y must something that great happen just to see who r the ones that truly care for u?

it is very sad i guess to see those i truly love to leave me...n those who dont leave me...arguing at the most 2pidest thing on earth...like i dunno y we do...but mayb we were never meant to b...or it just strengthen our bond...for those who really dunno me i m really emotional person...any slight thing can ruin my day...it has happened n i cried one day in sch...its like OMG k? my first crying session in my JC...i cant believe it can? its like so big le still cry? but can u sit down n think? i really could not take it anymore la? wth can? those who saw me cry were really lucky...cause i dun cry for people to see n if u do see it mayb cause i think u r someone i can relate to n that u could help me when i m really down...

after reading people's blog i realise something...i m not the only person who wan to see ghost...but not in the scary way...i just wan to relate to them...mayb these people could b the ones that will b there for me to let it all out...n nth else would happen rite? at least i dun think there will b...anyways me blogging now while i m sick...dun really wan to go sch for the OGL thign anymore...kinda fed up with the OG who eitehr not enthu or gives problems...well its like kidna expected already doh...but come on pls help me out can? i m already sick la...still do this to me? shouted at them today...i think some of them hate me already...wow just ruin thier life in SRJC...m i really that unstable? that a slightest thing make me go mad just like that? mayb not mayb its all the things that i keep in me n not let it out for so long...it has been building once again...MR TOH!!! EX DM OF CHS!!! where r u!!! i really miss the coffee we had together while i let everything out...i guess i would go tml again if i m not that sick...really happy that i have receive an sms asking me to go...really needed that encouragement...n to hear it from u just make it better...

i really love u...could u just give me a chance?
wo men dou shi pao mo qing qing yi peng jiu po
yan lei shi ai de hua huo
zuo tian jiu xiang fei ji chuan guo wo de chuang kou
wo shen me dou mei you

wo tan kai le shuang shou ni yu qu yu qiu
zhi dao ni xiang zi you
tong ku de shi hou wo bu hui shan duo
jiu xiang shu ye gan xin wei chun feng chui luo

zhi shi jian jian dan dan de ai guo
wo hai shi wo
jian jian dan dan de shang guo
jiu bu suan bai huo
jian jian dan dan de feng guo
bei meng dai zou
dang gu shi jie shu zhi hou
xin ye xi huan yi ge ren
心也喜欢一个人

Quote of the Day..."Is there life after death? or m i just dreaming that this is happening while i m dead? but how izzit possible when i m already dead?"

Candyman has died R.I.P.

2006-02-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

The dark clouds r here once again...the rain has fallen...the flood is brewing nearer...my candys minions washed away...wat m i to do? the ones i love n need r not there for me...i may not b able to handle this epidemic once again...i guess this is the end of the Candyman once again...y must this happen to me agian izzit really so hard to ask for something i truely wan n love?...Candyman has lost everything...in matters of days...everything will b back to normal...locked up in the coffin build of candy...may Candyman rest in peace...

love is just a word use to describe the feeling u have for others...but does that mean u have the rite to steal others from the ones who have been loving them b4 u came? y does it have to hurt when the ones u love leave u?

Pussycat Dolls - Stickwitu

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"Stickwitu"

I don't wanna go another day,
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
Seems like everybody's breaking up
Throwing their love away,
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

[Chorus:]
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you forever.
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you.
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you, my baby.
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you.

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind.
See the way we ride in our private lives,
Ain't nobody getting in between.
I want you to know that you're the only one for me (one for me)
And I say

[Chorus]

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need (nothing else I can need)
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me.
I got you,
We'll be making love endlessly.
I'm with you (baby, I'm with you)
Baby, you're with me (Baby, you're with me)

So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts.
So don't you worry about
People hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say

I would like to say how sorry i m to Michelle who lost her aunt this morning...pls do cheer up...if anything were to arise come look for me...upon hearing her aunt died...i too got lost in my own world...suddenly everything came to me and i felt really sad...still recall how much it hurt when i lost my uncle...it was heartbreaking...n realising that i m not being accepted it just open my healed wound once again...the blood seeping just made me feel depressed...i guess its back to suicide...i really wish to talk but no one to turn to...at least i dunno how to open myself to the ones i truely love...Mr.Toh if u read this hope u could call >_< really miss ur councilling...my life is going down the drain once again

The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage"

Sit tight, I'm gonna need you to keep time
Come on just snap, snap, snap your fingers for me
Good, good now we're making some progress
Come on just tap, tap, tap your toes to the beat
And I believe this may call for a proper introduction, and well
Don't you see, I'm the narrator, and this is just the prologue?

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, and you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Applause, applause, no wait wait
Dear studio audience, I've an announcement to make:
It seems the artists these days are not who you think
So we'll pick back up on that on another page

And I believe this may call for a proper introduction, and well
Don't you see, I'm the narrator and this is just the prologue

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, and you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be, your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, you swear to listen
Swear to shake it up, swear to shake it up

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives

Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
Oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention
I aim to be your eyes

...i tried to b happy...well i did thx to Gavin for being my punching bag...but as soon as my ez link card went faulty...losing my file...and the lonely ride back home...i realise how much sadness there is in life...that has happened today...has my sweetness gone sour? will i ever b the Candyman i use to b?

i really love u i do...but i cant do anything but watch u go on ur life with someone else...the pain jsut maake me wanna cry...i cant believe just a 2months since the new year...all this things r back to huant me...m i really that sad? wat m i to do? i may seem happy but all this things kept in my mind just coundnt stop me from thinking how much i have suffered thru the years...will i ever have someone to b with even if i had...rejection was the only answer i have...or someone else has already taken those i love with them...n not sharing them...i guess the only person that love me is my child...the child i ahve raised since i was young...i will love u always...no one else has given me this love...not even my parents...wat r they to me? i dun really no...no point stayin in this world...y did they bring me to this world to suffer...m i really such a failure in thier eyes? m i such a nobody? i have enough off all these...i dun wan to cont this life as someone that is just here for the sake of living in this rotting body...i wan to live in a world of my own...mayb death will bring me closer to wat i truely wish...dad i no u help me thru lots..but still u r really fucked up...cant u see wat has come between the both of us? hatred has already sank in...n i cant stop hating u...cause of wat u have done to not just me...to the family...n to every other person who u have shouted at thinking u r rite....but for god's sake...u werent always rite...y do u always think u r rite? izzit so hard to say u were wrong for once? did u even cared about how others feeling when u say those things? i bet u didnt no anything that ur daughter hates to b called 2pid n dumb...that i m wat i m not someone u wan me to b...n havin faith in me n not thinking that i m so useless...i still cant forget the time i got my prelim results...u totally killed me...i couldnt believe wat i heard it jsut broke my heart into a million pieces...how could u say that its not that i dun wan to b like my sis ok smart n all...but how could i when i cant even study without thinking how much i sucked...it just make me lose interest...n for goodness sake i m given chances all my life but y must to make it sound like i sucked so badly n that these r just because people look down on me n gave me a chance cause i m just a fucked up person....i understand now...all u wan to do is ruin people's life...n when u get piss u say other make u piss...but have u recalled the time u ever priased me for doing something? NEVER!!! u just praise n care about my sister...so wat if she is smart...i dun give a damn...this is it man...i have came back once i dun wan to b back again in this world...life is going to b tranparent from now on...i will b invisible for the rest of my life...just take it that i dun exsist...

and for that someone that i told u something...i hope u no its u...i m so sorry that i have ruin ur life like how i did to my other friend...its really heartbreaking that u said no but...i would wan to say that i love u still n that u will always b close to my heart...thx for being there for me...but i guess it is not up to u to decide whether i will b happy once agian...cause only me can do the final decision

"Autographs And Apologies"

Outline of a storyboard with no idea
Head first in the shallow end
and I apologize if I do not care
Busy hands keep swimming
They don't like swallowing to the abstract motor
"Gotta make that motor hum, gotta make it run."
Forward seems like forever when "ever" is hand over hand over hand
The busy hands keep swimming
Gotta make that motor "hum"
Get it over and done
So much for the autographs
So much for apologies
So much for the promises I never intended to keep
How does it all add up?
How does the story end?
I can't let go
I can't pretend
Very I'm so friendly
Very I'm so halloween
So this is what I wanted
Gotta keep those channels clean and other sobering themes
I'm drowning by numbers
my halo is bent
it's a fat fucking lie
and so the abstract motor gives in
it says "At least I tried."
At least I tried.

....hah wat a joke...just got a call from my uncle...so fuck again...wat the hell la only look for my sis when u ahve a math problem...m i that dumb? pls fucking think about it la...if not jsut fucking go home...i hate people like u...wat to do...brothers of the same kind flock together...fuck u people...thank u for making my life more miserable...

Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off"

Is it still me that makes you sweat?
Am I who you think about in bed?
When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?
Then think of what you did
And how I hope to God he was worth it.
When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin.
I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus
In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?
(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part
Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.
I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.
Now let's not get selfish
Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat
Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck
Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me
Girl I was it look past the sweat, a better love deserving of
Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?
No, no, no you know it will always just be, me

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
So testosterone boys and harlequin girls
Dance to this beat
And hold a lover close
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster
Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

My Chemical Romance - I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

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"I'm Not Okay (I Promise) - My Chemical Romance

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages all are torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-fucking-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

Quote of the Day..."Candyman will rest in peace in his candy coffin foreva...dun bother waking him up"

OG BBQ!!!

2006-02-05T13:28:00.000+08:00

haha so sorry la so long never post le...but wat to do so busy wiht everything...got dota competition...got chingay...got studies...got relationship to build up haha...ok anyways this post all about my OG outing la...go samuel house to? BBQ!!! wahahaha

ok erm that day nth much happen besides people getting thrown into the pool....getting wet by fellow friends using the ice box lol!!...we also played cards loh...er palyed bluf...haha i like finish my hand once n went take the cards on the table n continued haha...cause the game like lasted so freaking long la...got 2 decks of cards...lol so yea in the end i finished my hand twice wahaha which makes me n nasrin overall winners!!! wooohoooo...haha den i paly my very first bridge game...haha not bad la...kinda fun loh considering i won all the bridge games lolx...beginners luck i guess lolx...after the whole thing...crushed sean's house...haha me n nicholas our OGL when sean's palce to camp sia...not bad la there got 2 dogs haha so cute...den got table tennis to paly also...haha

here r the pics i have haha....CHECK THEM OUT!!!

on the left is Michelle who is erm chouting to someone lolx...followed by Nasrin...den Jia Ling...CuiShan and ME!! haha looking like crap -.- eating that satay lolx....

THE LIARS!!! haha...people that were palying bluf...from the left...Sean ME Nasrin Michelle and JiaLing...haha besides palying bluf we were eating the delicious dessert!! haha...the jelly was great!!!....

haha this is the BBQ team!!!...they were the ones that did all the cooking while i was slacking at the pavilion palying cards haha...WOOT!!!...from the back starting form the left is MeiYing Cedric(my xiao di) Samuel...btm row from the left...CuiShan Desmond(my Da ge) Andrew

THE SATAY CLUB!!! haha they were kinda incharge of cooking the satay n erm eating them to see if they were cooked n all haha...lucky they didnt get stomachache...lolx Andrew Cedric(my xiao di) and MeiYing

The first batch of chicken wings....CHAO DA!!! lolx wat to do just started cooking wat so dunno how long it takes to cook it...so CHAO DA LOH!! lolx

Pictures of Grad nite

2006-01-30T00:33:00.000+08:00

haha i finally realise i haven posted my grad nite photos!! omg!! lolx...that was like last yr la...so here they r!!!

Names(starting from the left):first row,Charlie,Ryan,Clarence,Aaron...2nd row...Xu Hau,JingShun,Jason,YuanRei,Me!,ZhongHao and Jerome

Names(starting from the left): ME!,YuanRei,KaiXiang(Kbud),JingShun,Nelson,Jerome,Ryan and Jason

Names(starting from the left): Nelson,Nicholas,Terence,Jason,YeeKai(kidiot),RenJie,JingShun and KaiXiang(kbud)

Names(starting from the left): ME!,Jason,YongLian,Nelson,Nicholas and Jerome

haha i love this pciture the best ok...YongLian was the joke of the day la...he was wearing a skirt,stockings la...ok sorry u cant see it cause its like have of his body gone...n yes he is a guy wearing lipstick and eye shadow...with red hair...wicked!! haha

Quote of the Day..."Some people sure can b crazy!!"

First few days of my JC life

2006-01-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

ok anyways haha its like a few wks liaoz since my first few days of JC life...ok so yea hmm...i made new friends n had a new god bro!! haha...ok anyways rite...my OG ROX!! haha u no y? cause i dun think any OG would b having an outing like almost every week n like on the spot ahve one lolx...n my xiao di even said wan to ahve a chalet leh...OMG i gonna broke liaoz loh lolx....MONEY BURN...thats wat they called it haha...anyways here is the picture of my OG!! including the 2 OGLs...

hmm ok its gonna b like a long name list so here we go!!...starting from the back row on the left side is ME!! haha...followed by my best buddy Nicholas,Andrew,Samuel,my new god bro Cedric,my other buddy Desmond,RongShan,Kevin(magic pro!!),Justin(MC kia),Gavin(momma's boy lolx j/k =p),alvin a.k.a. vinal(politician)...middle row starting form the left is CuiShan(Pink Gal),Ameliah(our OGs female PL...soon to b councilor),Mei Ying,Hui Lin,Alice,Xinyi,Michelle,Nazrin,Vivi....Front row on the left is our OGL Vincent...followed by our male PL Sean...last but not least...our OGL Nicholas...
haha so yea thats about all...hmmm will b postin other pics if i can get hold of them...anyways needa get some slp...tml gonna go for the Chingay thingy -.- bleah cant believe my whole OG signed up for it...well only a few didnt...so nitez people...

Quote of the Day..."Friends for life...Friends 4eva"

Holiday to Japan part 2

2006-01-11T17:19:00.000+08:00

haha so sorry ah take so long just to write about my days in Japan...ok so anyways rite...the 2nd day we kinda of erm went to this erm temple to like pray n all la it was kinda nice loh haha cause i really need the gd luck n all haha...so i cna get gd result for Os!!! lolx..ok there is like this thing they have with like water where u can like wash ur hands or like drink it lolx...so anyways i kinda when to wash my hands...zzz BAD IDEA SIA lolx...my hands totally froze loh...the water was icy cold...n the freezin wind made my hands go numb...almost instantly la...how sia...sigh so 2pid of me lolx...but it was gd luck man haha...so anyways den there was another place where this "holy n magical" smoke is erm...like being produced loh lolx its suppose to erm give gd luck too so i kinda erm go get some warmth also lolx...ok enough of the erm temple we shall like move on to the shoppign part haha...yes there r shops selling stuff near the temple!! haha so yea it was a great thing i guess...bought some stuff there...ok so after that we headed for erm lunch at this look alike place of paris lolx...the building had a replica of the tower in paris lolx sry dunno how to spell -.- dotz...haha so anyways kinda cool loh the food was ok la...went round lookin for gum balls but couldnt find it anywhere...in such a big shopping centre zzz how sucky can it get lolx? so yea den we when to erm see cars haha...the toyota car thingy cant remember so long le...it was great la cauase the cars were nice n freaking cheap loh -.- can u imagine a sports car that cost only 3mil yan lolx...that is like how much sg dollars? lets see 3mil yan = S$42k....wth?! that is like cheaper den the car my dad is driving....if i have not mistaken lolx....so anyways rite...it was great la den went to the nearby shopping centre loh nth much also la...lolx...den we went to erm the hotel at the foot of mt fuji...lolx it was great la ok...cause i saw snow on the ground lol!...so cool loh for the first time see snow...so anyway rite...ate at the hotel...den went for a HOT SPRING BATH!! lolx...omg loh u got to like soak urself in freaking hot water naked -.- swt ok...its like so zzzz....haha i dun think anyone would do it loh...but still i went for it...lots of ap people there but who cares? haha frekaing hot la i was like gonna get roasted lolx...so anyways yea it was great loh kinda fell asleep for awhile...haha so anyways next day it was a hike of MT FUJI!!! haha...erm ok la not really a hike but a drive haha...took us a few hours just to like reach 2k+ lolx...which was the highest u can go on bus...den they gave us this gd luck cum gd safty bell lolx...so kawii!!...ok den we went to this crystal shop loh...my mom bought a necklace for 10k lolx which is about 100+ in sg if i m not wrong not bad a bargin considering it was made of white crystals lolx...so yea after that we had a BBQ kinda of thing for dinner lolx kinda nice...the beef was DAMN nice sia...so yea taht is about it for erm day 3...wow half way thru the japan trip liaoz...tune in for part 3 lolx...mayb will do it after my dota game...haha chaoz

Quote of the Day..."love will make ur heartbeat faster and slower..."

Holiday to Japan

2005-12-31T02:36:00.000+08:00

er ok so yeah just got back from japan...zzz so i m freakin tired n all...havin a trouble stayin up late sia...lolx been slping super early in japan...case there was nth to do at nite...but watchin jap tv...or freezing in the cold winter breeze...anyways i think i will update again another time...with a day by day kinda post haha...so yeah mayb can put in some pics if i can get hold of them...

Quote of the Day..."life is but a dream...SO WAKE UP!!!"

Merry Christmas!!!

2005-12-24T23:24:00.000+08:00

haha wow erm today was a GREAT DAY!!! haha its comes by once in a million years la!!...ok la once a year haha...so anyways i woke up super duper early today la...well not that early around 10 haha...so anyways my mom was like doing last min cleanin...sis dunno wat happen to her...dad diaoz dunno also...so i like become a piggy la...lie on the bed n watch tv till around 3plus lolx...n started to like get ready for the christmas bash we have tonite haha...

ok people started coming around like 4+ so yeah...well the first thing i did with my cousins were erm playing this game i dled from yahoo games lolx...its a mystery solvin game...haha love mysteries...so yeah...but the game was kinda lame la...u have to search the place for "clues"...the clues r lame cause u r like looking for a "needle in a haystack" lolx literally la...like erm they ask u to find a butterfly...who would no that it is found in a picture -.- swt...haha n its like freakin hard to find....so anyways had a fun time findin those stuff n solving a few cases b4 the game kinda stop haha...only had an hour free trial...well next was a Magic the gathering match haha...my cousin didnt bring their decks so i offered them my box of cards n they kinda form a deck with it haha...it was damn sick la...lolx
less den 10mins they were all ready with their deck...one was a goblin deck while the other was a green deck...so as usual i used my 5 colour deck...haha kinda interestin game we had...so anyways we ended around like 11+ haha well this yr kinda suck considering the gifts that i get was literally tiny lolx...ok not tiny but less den 5 -.-!! can u believe that?! zzz i cant believe it la...so perthatic so anyways i got some nice gifts...like a OP file...a mouse pad that have inbuild USB ports(kinda interesting)...and erm a glass ball thingy that u shake n look into it haha...so yeah n a BRIGHT RED SHIRT!!...haha that is all of my gift...wth?! sigh kinda disappointed haha...well at least i didnt get a hair removal thingy i got last year haha....

Quote of the Day..."Merry Christmas...may god bless you"

5 weird/random things about myself

2005-12-07T18:49:00.000+08:00

haha erm i m doing this cause i have to like continue the 5 weird/random things about myself thingy for blogging...haha yeah so anyways got selected by Kidiot for doing this...so anyways i told him i will do a post today haha after thinking about it yesterday...but still yeah kenna shock n stun loh dunno wat to write haha...its like too sudden le...so yeah i gonna try haha so yeah pls support me i guess haha...

1. ok so yeah er i will talk about my fetish for sweets!! haha...izzit me or izzit the aircon?(sounds familiar jacintha?) lolx anyways yea...er its like so funny loh that time when i was like erm K1 yeah...den had to do this school performance thing...den i was like holding lots of sweets that my teacher gave me la haha...i was a happy boy den...all those sweets!!!...so anyway rite...i had to go perform so i asked my teacher to hold my sweets for me...but after the performance...my sweets were gone la!! Y? u ask...cause my teacher gave them away to some other student...wah lao so pathetic la i was like crying so badly cause i love sweets wat den now all my sweets gone...den my parents bought me this erm super duper big lolipop haha...its freaking big la cause it kinda covered my face haha...i was small den la...haha...so yeah...

2. ok so yeah talk about my fetish of neon green items!!! haha lolx weird rite?
y would anyone like neon green? its like super bright n people would think of puke when u say green...or jealousy...i guess haha...ok la i m jealous of people like who isnt...but green is them nice loh...like er green sweets...green mouse...green teddy bear i got from my kor for my birthday haha...and erm a green frog lolx...these r like the few things that r green in my room...haha n erm i side of my wall is green too haha...so yeah...haha

3. woah still got so many to write about i like nth to say le lolx...hmm ok i like to erm see a ghost but i m too afraid to see one lolx...contradicting but true...lolx...i m like so interested in the paranomal that once i wanted to join SPI..but after thinking about it i didnt cause i dun wan to like play with fire haha...later i get in too lots of trouble...hey i m still young ok lolx still have lots to do b4 i can leave this miserable place lolx..so yeah haha...

4. haha er i another weird thing about myself is that i go around reading people's blogs n start laughing at how 2pid they r lolx...er not tryin to say they r really stupid but erm stupid way of funny lolx..so yeah..here r some examples...The human being is funny - and here's 5 reasons why:

1. When you lose something, people always tell you "Where was the last place you put it?" - well, if you knew where that place was, the damned object wouldn't be missing in the first place eh?

2. In the middle of a movie, you friend tells you, "Hey, did you see that? Pretty cool huh?" - well, no I didn't - I paid $9 bucks to go into the theatre, stuff my nostrils with popcorn and stare at the ceiling...

3. We've all been bugged down by a missing remote control and can spend the whole fornicating day searching for that piece of equipment - when we could have just walked up to the tv and changed the channel manually... (this goes for cable tv..)

4. Friends who ask for the time usually point at their wrist; but do they point to their groin and ask where the toilet is? A girl doing that could either mean that she's real urgent and needs to let the old lady sing; or; she needs pampers, instead of kotex or whisper..

and my favourite hit at our everyday behaviour (yes, it happens to me to...) :

5. Your Mum calls home, you pick up and she very calmly asks, "Ah Boy ah, you're at home issit?" - Genius

haha that is from Kidiot's blog...hmm another funny post is from Amy =p haha...mayb i shud have this Funniest blog post contest haha....BENEFITS OF KISSING :

1) It helps prevent tooth decay. Kissing produces a strong flow of saliva, which "bathes" your teeth.
So people with yellow dirty teeth will have nothing to fear :D maybe you'll just have to fear that no one wants to go near you.

2) It relieves tension/stress. When you're angry, you have a nice pair of lips to bite :D

3) Slows down the aging process. You know kissing helps tone up your cheeks and jaw? No? Now you do.

4) Helps one to loose weight. During a snog, one can lose up to 26 calories per minute. Obese people, you hear this? Start snogging!

5) It increases your fitness level. Obviously, your heart pumps faster, your pulse races...

6) It boosts your self esteem.

7) It makes one horny. It's nice to feel horny at times.

8) Infact, It makes one SO horny, it might lead to sex. And You might even have a kid after that. Singapore needs a boost in population, singapore loves you.

9) It's a good indication of what's to come.

10) A good way to find out if you two 'click'.

5. o yay last one...lolx hmmm i like to sing while i bath haha...well last time but not now cause i realise when u do that u get to drink lots of soapy water n u no that is not gd haha...so yeah thats all people haha...

Following tradition, im supposed to list out the 5 chosen ones. Well yeah sure, these people are going to go on and save the world. But i better list them out, otherwise later chucky the doll would sneak into my room and nullify my manhood, and that my friends, would be a very sad thing indeed.(sounds familiar? lolx)

1.Jacintha
2.Amix
3.Bryan
4.Charlie
5.Kfriend(can i ask him do another for me? lolx)

Grad Nite

2005-12-04T19:47:00.000+08:00

Vitamin C - Graduation (Friends Forever)

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Omg sia been so long since i blog la...sry sia too busy with everything else but my blog...sux ok how can i do this to my blog its like er...a thing that keeps all my troubles happiness and like everything else? lolx...anyways er i still haven write up the love story of Gerald(Thraxx2) and Jinjie....so anyways rite yeah gonna keep that on hold for awhile...n talk about my grad nite...

Sigh its like 4 yrs le la so fast...n i m gonna leave this sch le...hope my friends would not 4get about me...i think we shud have yearly outings so as to bring back those times we had when we were in sch together...anyways it has been a wonderful 2yrs la with them....will find a way to erm upload the class photo haha...anyways so yeah back to the grad nite...

Total like only got erm 15/25 people taht went for the grad nite...kinda disappointing la cause the whole class not there...and the best thing was that our form teacher mrs long never go...so sianz...i mean its like the last time we meet each other loh...but ok la she like suddenly sick den cant go haha...mayb was because the day b4 had bowling gathering n she ate uncook food made by the juniors? lolx...so food poisoning haha...funny sia

the food was pathetic i guess didnt really enjoy it la pay $65 get this type of shit...fried rice? -.- can go kopitiam eat la nabei...so lame loh...den the entertainment was kinda crappy la...start was some people sing song...nobody bored...everyone started to take photos etc...haha funny la...anyways gonna like get the grad ntie photos n start posting them up...zzz been having prob wif posting pic again sia sibei sianz....but i also dun have much photos so yeah...keep waiting people!!! i m too ok...jason lee still dun wan add me on msn to send me those pics -.- zzz so anyways yeah...hmmm kinda sianz loh the grad nite nth de...super boring...haa but the after party was great la...crash kidiot's place n Gamble lolx...Mahjong blackjack poker etc...i kinda the big loser la lost los of money but watever la..i mean its just for the fun of it rite? haha anyways they all say dun wan to slp de la so sianz in the end they slept at like 3+ i think...den i was like playing poo rain on the phone..so bored n slp also zzz nth else to do le!!!...so yeah slp for an hr plus? lolx...too noisy le la keep waking up hearing them SNORE!!! -.- piggies la...lolx so yeah early morning we woke up go eat prata house den i went home...had a great time loh....

Anyways rite kinda sad la my sms buddy not replying my msg le la!!! >_< zzz dunno wat happen to him le....like almost 2 wks liaoz...dunno where he go mayb he er...go holiday or something la...sibei sianz loh...nabei or he dao me liaoz...argh i hate this loh...friends for so long den graduate le all 4get each other...wth la...cant u like remember me? i mean its not like i er did something so wrong taht u wan to 4get me 4eva rite? -.- so yeah i hope rite we will all like have yearly outings haha so we can continue to have this friendship...these goes out to all the K people!!!...kbud kperson and kidiot lolx...n all my other close friends sigh FRIENDS 4EVA k? >_<

Quote of the Day..."Friend 4EVA...ha...wat a joke i think my friend already 4got about me >_<"

For a Special Someone

2005-11-19T23:54:00.000+08:00

Have u ever felt like life is meaningless because the one u love is either not with u or rejected u...sigh well it has happen to many of us b4...well of cause i m one of the victims...so on this special day...i shall call it Lovers Day...haha this day shall b the day where all the lovers out there will b able to voice out thier love for the special someone...

hmm haha its seems like we have our first Love birds...lolx ok lets call them thraxx2 & jingie...thraxx2 who is in love with jingie has told me to dedicate this this 2 lovely poems to his beloved jingie...

Everything I've done, I've done
Only for your love.
Everything I am, I am
In hopes your heart will move.

I know that you love someone else,
But while you're away,
I'll love you just as though our love
Would last till you are grey.

Till you and I are grey, my love,
And all our days are done,
I'll love you just as I do now;
Your heart's my only home.

OMY....after reading that it reminded me of my...nvm haha...anyways it was truely touching n romantic...hope that jingie will b able to see this...cause ur thraxx2 really loves u n wans to b part of ur life....lets look at the next poem from thraxx2...

I know that you don't feel for me
The way I feel for you.
We're good friends, I value that,
There's nothing you need do.

But as a friend I need to tell you
What is in my heart.
An unsaid truth is like a wall,
Keeping us apart.

My love for you will go nowhere,
Will just remain with me.
I'll hold it in my quiet arms
And feel it constantly.

this one just make me wanna cry...it shows the neverending love for someone n truely amaze me that this relationship was not possible...Candyman shall now say a prayer of good fortune for thraxx2...in hoping that his true love will b with always...

TO BE CONTINUED....

Quote Of the Day..."LOVE makes the world go round"

CandyMan has been REBORN!!!

2005-10-30T20:30:00.000+08:00

Darkness has fallen on this dark stormy nite....The Dawn of the SWEETS has come....
Chocolate Zombies are walking....
Gummy Bears awaken from thier eternal slumber....
And the all powerful CANDYMAN has return to take over the world....
Together with his artificially sweeten minions...
They will RAISE ONCE AGAIN!!!
MUHAHAHAHAHA...

haha well its like 8+ now...i m still preparing myself for the rising of the SWEETS!!! muhahaha...at the stroke of midnight...we will raise once again to take over this boring all world and turn it into the scariest and sweetest place in the world!!!....

lolx anyways yeah today was great la...cant wait for halloween...so woke up blah blah blah...was watching the simpson's halloween edition haha so nice loh..."scary" and funny...so yeah tonite there r like creapy shows going on chl19 AXN so yeah dun forget to watch!!!...haha gonna make a link to SPI(singapore paranomal investigators)...go there and check it out!!!...one day u will see my name there haha...

hey!! there is a halloween bash tml at erm cineleisure!!!...anyone interested in following me there? haha there r free coms for u to play the latest scariest pc game...F.E.A.R....so yeah anyone interested pls sms me or erm tag!!! haha if JS u can see this i m sure u will tag along lolx...so anyways yeah...the halloween bash is from 6pm to 3am...so yeah join me in this "scariest day" haha...and rise with my sweet minions...

Quote of the Day..."Candy is good for ur health...eat more candy!!!"

CANDYMAN IS BACK!!!

2005-10-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

OMG la...i cant believe it loh this is such a nice BLOGSKIN...i would like to thank my man...KHAIRUL!!! U ROCK MY WORLD!!! haha for cre8ing such a magnificient blogskin for me...THREE CHEERS!!!

Ok so anyways its been so long since i blogged....was waiting for the blogskin haha so yeah...been studying alot more den last time...but still i m like so not prepared for the Os...argh this really sux loh....ok so yeah i will like talk about a few things besides my upcoming Os...

Firstly, hmmm sh!t i kinda of 4got a few things i wanted to say haha...too long le...have STM...anyways the most unforgetable was the erm "grad concert"...it was freaking emotional la i was like so happy to b there....looking at the teachers for the very last time n all....sigh cant believe it la....after 10 years of staying in this sch i m gonna leave...really sad n all...the speech etc was...BORING lolx!...its the slide show done by the teachers that really made me cry....zzz who says men cant cry....so yeah...the first one was done by Mrs Angeline Tay(physics) teacher...for her class n mine....wah kao the things she say n the pics plus the saddening music...really "touched" me la...den started to have things in my eyes....den came my form teacher aka Mrs Long's presentation....wah was meaning n all could not hold back le sia...sigh but after that i was like kinda controling myself so yeah i didnt cry anymore....the rest of the slides were kinda funny n all haha...like 4-11 erm teacher used the infernal affairs...haha was LMAO...

Secondly, hmmm let me think zzz cant remember wat else i was gonna type loh...so yeah...i think its like about friendship la....friends shud trust each other rite?...but sometimes your friends make stab u in the back la....zzz cant believe it loh...dun wan talk about it le....anyways yeah....would like to wish all my friends who r taking the Os this year to work hard n GD LUCK!!!...haha dun 4get about me ok?...we shall keep in touch FRIENDS 4EVA!!!

O yeah....yesterday was totally rubbish la....went for practical dne i like kinda shrewed it up cant believe it...2pid sia argh...so anyways went to J8 to makan at the erm macs...n saw WeiLaign my P6 friend together with aaron cheng...zzz the usual smokers i guess sigh...den erm saw WeiZhou and a round cute fat guy lolx...cant remember his name...den i like wave to them loh...zzz being friendly n all...den the cute fat round guy came to me n erm hold my chin n did the kissy thing -.-!!! wth la in public...trying to ruin my reputation...anyways i kinda of like breathe in when he place his hand on my chin...OMG!...almost fainted due to the lack of OXYGEN IN MY BRAIN!!!....zzz his hand smell of smoke la TMD...so anyways sry peeps me not smoker...and fat round guy dun do that ever again kaex? pls >_<
Quote of the Day..."FRIENDS now...means FRIENDS 4eva!!!....LOVE U PEOPLE!!!"

A okay day

2005-10-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

hmmm ok today was kinda erm crappy when i first woke up cause i 4got thattoday my baby was like gonna get a jab(vacination)...so yeah....kinda sad la woke up around 9 den no one at home le...left my breakfast...see le so turned off so didnt eat till like 10+...so anyways yeah...my dad brought her there...zzz cant imagine wat could happen...so yeah think positive thoughts...den my mom went to work...sis dunno go where...so zzz....anyways yeah was kinda late for avatar...sigh miss out the starting part but yeah it was kinda cool la...like the part when the fire nation erm...the old guy lolx...was erm bathing? den kenna erm ambush by earth benders...lolx so funny la...he was naked n all zzz was super lamez...so the nephew came to rescue him...zzz cant believe erm 2 fire bender can trash 5 or 6 earth benders...that is so pertatic...sigh anyways...i still think air n water bending is the best!...so yeah after the show kinda erm change chl den saw this erm dragons cartoon or something...den the main character was like erm got elemental powers also la...air n fire bending lolx!...den the bad guy was an ice bender...anyways yeah it was not too bad la...but the graphics sux so yeah...try to make it "3D" but yeah it sux...anyways yeah...

anyways just visited my friend's new blog...hmm not bad sia haha...the 2nd entry was filled wif so many emotions la...about his past n all....cheer up!...ok so erm anyways met up wif kfriend n kidiot...den went orchard mrt to meet the rest to celebrate nicholas leo bday...well it was almost a stoning day la...zzz haha like usually everyone will just walk around orchard n stuff...but not so bad la today...ok so we went lido wanting to watch 4 brothers...so happen go there...see the same old lady...den dun let us buy tix cause someone not 16 yet...zzz...haha so yeah went to erm cine...aiyo there like no one cares de la...so in the end watch the show...not bad la except for all the erm...vulgarities...n erm killings...haha...so yeah after that went to marina bay to eat BBQ

so yeah its was freaking crowded la...anyways we were like looking for erm a palce den erm...suddenly a group of people la...started shouting n running....lolx i was like huh? den i realise the erm btm of the table was on FIRE!! lolx...den i turn around...zzz i see erm kidiot...kfriend...terence and nelson all run away...lolx...like flash la super fast sia...ZOOM!! lolx...aiyo all like so scared...sigh but yeah we all thot erm got gang fight or something lolx...so erm we went to eat la...not bad la at least got eat something...but it worth $12 la zzz...at least got kope some free ice crema feel better lolx!...so after that...went to play arcade la...everyone was like MARCUS GO PLAY PARAPARA!!...zzz its like so irritating la...so anyways i went to play ghost squad as usual...1 player...sigh didnt expect to complete 2 stages n died in the last lvl la...sigh...cause i recall last time i cant solo even like 1 stage la lolx...well partly cause the stage lvl is like so low la...my old card was like lvl 10+...the new one only like...lvl 4?...so it was crappy...anyways got 2 lvls lolx...den we all played a 8 player datona match!!..haha was laggin behind la 7th...den terence tay who was last came den i ram him to the wall lolx!...den erm i caught up...saw 4 cars trying to erm bang each other...so i just wait behind...den BAM!!...lolx all the car gone n i was 4th lolx...that so rox...so yeah den went home...zzz so sleepy...yawnz...

Quote of the Day..."I tried so hard and got so far...in the end it doesnt even matter...i had to fall to lose it all....in the end it doesnt even matter..."

Depressing Day

2005-09-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

ok so erm youliang jingshun n k bud came my house to study on friday...so yeah erm as usual la they were not studying...so i was like erm doing my physics TYS...so yeah erm yl n js were trying to erm rape each other or something la so yeah...they were so zzz dun wan to explain...so anyways yeah la erm js tried to carry paris out of the cage...but she went to bite him haha..so funny la...den he kinda of freaked!!den erm the cage kinda of erm "jumped" lolx den yeah the stuff in there flew out n some got onto yl who was sitting next to the cage lolx...he was freaking piss n all la...haha kinda funny...so anyways about five plus brought my dog to walk again den played awhile...everyone got mosquito bite haha...so yeah sorry la...zzz complain so much say wat later get fever..zzz ok sorry -.- so yeah could not stop myself again played dota the whole nite til around 2am so argh felt really bad la...den erm stop around 2+ den studyed my geog abit b4 i went to bed...so anyways i freaked out when i erm when to the toilet n this freaking cockroach like flew out of nowhere infront of me....i almost jumped back la...zzz de i kinda of erm sprayed bygone...like erm almost half the can...den i closed the door...hope it choke to death or something haha...

ok so erm today woke up usualy time just to watch my tv show haha...finished watching my cartoon at about 10 den i started "muggin" well i cant say its really muggin la cause it took me like the whole day just to finish studying one subject so yeah...i think i m prepared for my chemistry ^^...so yeah went to my cousin's cafe to eat dinner...thier kids were there so played with them n all haha the food was great...not trying to b bias or anything but it was really nice...the nachos was the best...nachos with kinda erm fried cheese or something haha smell to gd..n erm beef...haha was really nice...so yeah came home gonna recall wat i learn for my chem n start to study for my social studies...i really really wanna do well sia...this prelim cannot get more den 20...cause if i do i really dunno wat to do le...mayb shud jsut go die or something...no point le wat...cant become a vet anymore sigh...so yeah i guess tonite around 11 or 12 i can paly a little of dota since i did study quite alot haha...

Quote of the Day..."Life is short...suiciding will make it shorter"

Cemetary Drive

2005-09-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

ok erem sudden urge to type something from my heart...sigh after hearing the songs from MCR...it really made me change...see things differently...really dun wanna change...my life is already ruin...changing it will make things worse so anyways...erm i have already hurt some people...family members included...people who r close to me like friends...my god bro...etc so erm yeah...really sad cant believe i have done so many things without knowing it...so anywys was hearing the MCR song...n yeah the lyrics really erm stirr up my feelings again...y is it so hard to b liked by other people? wat have i done to deserve all this...its like someone is trying to plot revenge or something....its like playing chess blindfolded...i dunno wat the next step is...but when i made the move i realise how wrong it was...n people suffer...not just me people close to me get affected...welll friends r there for me but still somethings cant b said n done...doing it will just make things worse...i have experienced it....n yeah it just made friendships/relationships...harder n more complicated...well have another erm lyrics by the MCR songs titled....Cemetary Drive...its really sums up my feelings now...

This night, walk the dead
In the solitary starlight,
Crash the cemetery gates.
In the dress your husband hates
Lay down, mark the grave
Where the search lights find us
Drinking by the musalium door
And they found you on the bathroom floor

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that make it so hard

And I call you off the run
Singing songs that make you slit your wrist
It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun
So I won't stop dying, won't stop lying
If you want i'll keep on crying
Did you get what you deserve?
Is this what you always want me for?

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that make it so hard

Lay down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that make it so hard

I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that make it so hard
Made it so hard

Lay down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down
Way down, way down

the chorus is really the part where i feel some people r treating me...haha so yeah well u never no la watever u say just affects me one way or another but i just dun show it...so yeah...n i really miss some people...kinda sad that it has to b this way...I miss you, I miss you so far
And the collision of your kiss that make it so hard
Made it so hard

Quote of the Day..."dying will not change things...living will allow u to do things that may change for the better...or make it worse..."

OMG!! haha...this really birghtens up my life

2005-09-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

OMG la its like so long le loh been waiting for the newest MCR vid....The Ghost Of You...so yeah its been shown on TRL !!!OMG la b4 the premeire erm...Gerard was on the phone loh...this really rox man haha...brightens up my day...MCR ROCK ON!!!...haha...anyways just finish watching the vid...was erm kinda sad la...its like erm savin private ryan...lolx...so yeah very touching and all...n erm haha really happy to b able to watch the vid loh...so anyways...erm anyone who erm no where to get the MCR t shirts...pls TELL ME!!...been seeing a few people wearing it la...wah lao...haha

Quote of the Day..."happy days seem to b coming...but will it last 4eva?"

OMG haha this brightens up my day

2005-09-19T20:59:00.001+08:00

OMG this is just new from TRL!!! haha the NEW MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE VIDEO....the song is erm...THE GHOST OF YOU haha....been waiting for so long sia...really wanted to see the vid...so yeah haha...this really erm make me wanna SCREAM!!!haha so happy now...hope to get hold of one of the MCR t shirts...anyone who know pls tell me k? haha...gonna go watch the vid now....mayb i go request for the vid on POP inc...haha damn sianz la my last request didnt make it...so long le still never play...

OMG haha this brightens up my day

2005-09-19T20:59:00.000+08:00

Plain old F*cked up day

2005-09-19T16:24:00.000+08:00

so anyways erm today was like haha F*cked up la...sigh really dun wan get sick or something la...cause when u sick...u will get mc...when u get mc...u stay at home...when u stay at home...u start to think about ur past...and also the future...haha...so yeah erm...about the person u love...the up coming O lvl...so yeah it really pisses me off when i had to stay out in the rain just because some F*cked up teacher dun let us off cause some of our classmates r not accounted for....but pls la hor...my class can NEVER!! get a full attendence...its freaking impossible la...wth...so yeah it was raining den got bigger...well if mr goh yong han never ask us to go into the shelter...i would like freak get piss n do crazy stuff again la...so anyways hope i dun get sick sia...my whole family sick...wth...den prelims n O lvl coming so fast...when u r sick its hopeless cause u wont b in the mood to study...so yeah it sucked...the P.E. was rubbish la...cause wah lao at a time like this still have damn sianz la...i rather have self study or something loh...freaking piss...ok watever la...so erm after P.E. had a slight headache...haha no oxygen to my brain sia...zzz...so the whole math period was argh...wanted to sleep haha...but yea i still learned something...

anyways i came across mellavin's blog...erm hope the name is spelt correctly la...so anyways yeah...found out how erm sentimental n erm emotional he is haha...his blog is really ah....a classic sia...one of a kind...lots of erm emotions la...lolx his posts like erm a few sentences but erm its sums up the feelings in him...really could feel the way he is haha...anyways yeah kinda sad guy la cause he lost his wallet...so anyways cheer up k? must b like me haha...i starting to cheer up alittle la...but yeah just cant forget about somethings...so anyways...i have to quote something from his blog...really erm meaningful n all n sums up my life also haha...at least some parts of it la...

What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
Nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you
All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off you
Something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right
Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of
You and me and all of the people
With nothing to do nothin to prove and
It's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you
What day is it
And in what month
This clock never seemed so alive

Quote of the Day..."love can make a person change for the better"

Sleepyhead by Day....Candyman by nite

2005-09-18T21:44:00.000+08:00

ok today was the best day la...well only for like erm first 3 hours lolx...so yeah was palying dota again from 1-3am...>_< i really shud stop...but anyways haha...the best la...was owning!!! weee...used erm lolx actually i can only remember the last 2 games i think...so yeah i used NA(narubian Assasin)...so yeah got 12kills >_< wah lao damn sad la...1 death...idiot sia...almost killed him den the other hero bs n kill me...zzz...so yeah erm was beyond GODLIKE!!! hahaha...so anyways the best match of the day was 3v3...alex harry n chris(ex CHS bowlers) VS Jingshun KaiYang n me( current sec4 in CHS) lol!...alex(phantom lancer) chris(sven) harry(necro)....jingshun(clinkz) KaiYang(venomancer) me(centaur warchief)...so yeah haha...thot i could own again n get my godlike but yeah the match was too intense le...got a few kills la...n my death aobut the same as my kills...so anyways...we were all pushing like crazy loh...both teams at 10 towers down...everyone tried to push to win...haha so yeah starting we were losing bad cause alex was splitting like some crazy amoba lol!...so hard to kill him...den he rush our base...def abit den out turn to rush....so yeah it was like a never ending battle...lol! so anyways alex tried to bd(backdoor)...luckily i was at base so yeah...he came i blink to him...hoof(stunning skill)...mom den started wacking him lol! was so lucky la i killed him...so yeah...haha he finally died...anyways we really wan to end the game...desperate le la...it was like 330am >_< i was freaking tired...so anyways haha erm ky n js bd also....n took the rax down in like a few seconds !! lolx...cause i was like gonna say gg...den before i could press enter...game ends lolx!!...WE WON!!! woopy!!!haha the game lasted for 99.45mins -.- broke the world record for me la for a simple dota game...haha

so yeah today as usual la woke up at 8+ to get ready for my show at 9...AVATAR...so yeah not bad la today's episode..so anyways...was really tired...and argh moody...thinking of things while i was like half asleep...so yeah...made my day very sad...tired...n moody...so yeah keep waking up...argh rough day...so anyways the next thing i knew it was like 355...gotta get ready for tuition...so yeah...blah blah blah...reached j8...tim call me den met up with him n kenneth...so yeah...was not in a gd mood to like talk n all...argh havin moodswings n all so yeah i tried to erm keep a distance with them...so reached there caterine not there yet so yeah...wait loh...den go in i asked to do physics paper...den in the end she gave pure physics..so i like diaoz...dun wan get mad so didnt bother about it so i did my tys...the erm pass year O lvl papers...ok la..but hate my tys cause sometimes no answer de...so watever la do le...did abit of maths den erm yeah remembered about my history...so kinda erm...sianz la...it was about 6+...sigh so waited awhile do some topics on physics den left...nth much happen le la...sigh at least i dun wan to talk about it...

Quote of the Day..."when u lose someone...u would do anything for that person"

Life is never the same again

2005-09-15T20:14:00.000+08:00

ok i just thought aobut it n yeah realise alot of things r changing...people r changing...everything is changin...all these changes were all because of me...all the choices i have made just made things worse...i thot it would b great to do this but...not only did it back fired...it cause other people to feel sad n all...i really n truly sorry for doing such a thing but i really couldnt stop myself...its just the fact...but yeah its hard for people to really understand...well even if u trust that person with everything u got...do u really think that that person will keep the secret for the rest of his life? well i wished...but yeah of cause its not possible...so the best is to keep it to urself...y bother telling others...when that person may react differently after that...and even worse tell someone else about that secret...sigh i have ruin too many people's life...i intend to stop...mayb taking my life in exchange for others to b happy again wont b a bad thing...at least u no those that really care for u will b happy...haha that didnt sound rite but yeah...argh i need to talk to someone...this stinks...

anyways yeah today was ok...everything was ok...but yeah talked to people n i learnt that somethings i said n done has cause people to b upset...depressed n such...i m really sorry ok? i dunno wat i said that caused it but i truely m sorry for it...pls forgive me n dun b so depressed n all ok?

well yeah k idiot came my house to see !paris...haha stayed for awhile den he left for home...argh cant imagine they made me play dota...so yeah played one game n i stopped...was planning to do physics paper...did half way i fell asleep...sux la...dunno y i have been so tired lately...mayb because of all the crying late at nite haha...but wat the heck...so yeah...didnt finish it...was due next week so i didnt bother...den i remembered about the ss homework >_< argh gonna go rush it later tonite...n math...i think i tml do it while i stay back in sch for focus grp...argh must really focus le...its not too late...n not too early...if i dun start i never will...

Quote of the Day..."sorry has no meaning in it if u dun say it with love"

OMG haha -.-

2005-09-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

ok so yeah today was kinda ok la did my work n all just that erm history was kinda bored almost slept la...but yeah was sitll listening abit...lolx half a sleep...so anyways...erm...k idiot n the rest was thinking of coming to my place to day to see !paris(lol!)...but yeah was kinda busy n such so coundnt bring them to my house...anyways haha planned for tml...and i was thinking...erm how is it possible to erm occupy so many of them...i think about 4 or 5 going...erm if u ask k bud..u would realise that my room is freaking small...argh so yeah haha...not forgetting my dog...but yeah its well locked up so it wont jump on people haha...mayb i shud let it out tml haha...

argh so yeah leaving this small house soon sigh...my parents think that its not a gd place to live even though its like the most central place la...so many buses to take to where ever u wan to go...so sad la...but another reason is that they feel this place give them bad luck...cause its where all the fights etc have originated from...so yeah...wth like i care so yeah..will miss this place...dunno where i will stay sia...sux when u have to move away...

so yeah erm got back my erm CCA points sh!T...got a B3 la freaking annoyed by it la i just cnat believe i cant get a distinction for it...after all i have done for the 4 years i got a freaking B3...n other people that didnt do much can get A2 for it...so freaking piss la...argh dun wanna talk about it anymore...

Quote of the Day..."love will never b there...tried asking for it but got turned down..."

love was lost n never coming back

2005-09-13T21:11:00.000+08:00

ok the F*cking idiot who used my name to tag my tagboard is going to have to stop it...i think i no who it is n u better stop...wow wat a day to come n give me this crap...i m seek n tired of getting this sh!t from people so F*cking STOP!!...pls la if u really think this is fun den i rest my case but...i will sure come n huant u when i commit suicide....u freaking stop...F*cking cb...

argh today was actually kinda nice day la...i dunno just felt kinda sleepy n all so kinda like sleep for 2 periods...but yeah nth much going on during the lessons so yeah...den went for the erm hearty breakfast yeah...den came back n started doing math...well it was erm kinda revision so yeah...no bad la could do all the questions no prob...den went for recess n all...actually didnt go eat la...just went toilet n all...so yeah came back for the last 2 periods...argh den found out no erm...2-3 science lesson so talked in class till erm...it was time to go meet up with the rest n all

tuition was kinda drag la...well wasted sometime but yeah in the end had the mind set to do work n did my stuff...so yeah kinda worth it la...den i found out my erm primary sch friend also goes for her tuition haha...so yeah nice meeting u there Desmond!!...sigh isnt it nice to meet up if ur old friends?...sigh friends shud b together n all rite? so was kinda happy to see him...

anyways yeah dunno wat but yeah the day was kinda down too la...cause been thinking alot...n yeah during the erm chinese lesson had even more time to think about stuff as i dun need to go for chinese...so yeah....was thinking alot of stuff in the library...realise somethings r like so wrong heh...just cant find anything rite from the pass few days...there were more wrongs den rite...things i said things i have done...things people done to me...i hear things i dun wan to hear...but sitll i heard it n yeah its kinda sad thing...so yeah here i m writing all my sorrows n yeah wats the point i really dun find the need to write...cause the things i wan to say i cant...cause this blog is getting kinda popular and all...many read it often...so yeah...anyways so the day ended kinda badly i guess dunno wth happen just erm yeah haha just sparked something off so yeah...really mad n all so yeah just cant beleive i did that...anyways was thinking about it on the way back n all...sigh kinda depressed again la...so yeah really erm sad...sigh got home n yeah everyone was really driving me up the wall...well so yeah logged myself up in the room to think n cry about it all haha crying is such a common thing u no? haha i dunno just feel that it is really really gonna make me do something i really wish i wouldnt...but yeah thot about cutting myself up n let go off all the pain inside of me...but yeah wouldnt wan to do somethings that will be too obvious to everyone heh...so i think i will just do wat i always do...y do these things always happen to me the pain is so intense sometime i really thot i would just die off the pain...anyways at least now i have someone else to love n all n hope it will make my life better like my dog...really love them so much...

anyways yeah its like kinda bad thing to b feeling down so much cause yeah i wont b able to concenrate that well for my Os...so yeah telling people about my sorrow may not b the best thing cause i guess its erm no much use la...cause i relaly dunno how to express myself n all? even if i wan to i cant...i only have about 2 people that may truely understand how i feel...so hope these to people dun erm...play me out when i need u k?...haha i think i m feeling alittle better...crying does make u feel better...at least its a erm short term kinda of thing that helps to make u sleep...sleeping cna make u 4get about the pain...but when u wake up...the pain is back once again to huant u...well haha i guess these things really is part of my life manz...thinking of ways where i can change myself...mayb death is n option...it has been in my head for a long time...controlling myself is hard...so yeah...if i really think of doing it...pls who ever i call tell me not to haha...it is kinda sad to see the ones i truely love r like changing to become someone i really dun understand anymore...i think i shud go for counselling again...haha but yeah i lost my erm counselor contact so haha kinda sad la but i guess i could always go to the dm office to look for him...been sometime since i told him about all my sorrows...haha...wth i cant believe it la but yeah i just lost all the love i got...n it seems like its not coming back ever again...izzit really suppose to b like this?

here is another lyric from My Chemical Romance...erm it kinda sums up my feelings n all for today...

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE - I'm Not Okay (I Promise)

Album: Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge (2004)

Well if you wanted honesty that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go- it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, for photographs your boyfriend took.
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay.
I'm not, okay.
I'm not okay, you wear me out.
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? (I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words (I'm not okay),
but don't know what it means to be a joke and look another line without a hook.
I held you close as we both shook.
For the last time, take a good hard look.
I'm not okay. I'm not, okay.
I'm not okay, you wear me out.
Forget about the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took.
You said you read me like a book, well the pages all are torn and frayed out.
I'm okay, I'm o-kay. I' m okay now (I'm okay now).
But you really didn't listen to me because I'm telling you the truth,
I mean this I'm okay- trust me.
I'm not okay. I'm not okay.
Well, I'm not okay, I'm not o' fucking kay.
I'm not okay. I'm not okay (okay).

Quote of the Day..."love was never there...even when i asked for it...no one was there to give it to me..."

OMG guess wat? -.-

2005-09-11T20:28:00.000+08:00

ok today was another gd day to watch tv lolx...yeah woke up at erm 8+ so i can watch my Avatar:The Last Air Bender...haha today's episode was kinda cool and erm funny...so yeah lolx...den i watched the erm Thats so Raven...haha another comedy that i liked...so erm was laughing la lolx...anyways yeah nothing special happen la...

ok so its like around 3+ sms tim/ken to see wat time meet to go tuition...yeah den i fell asleep...zzz when i woke up around 350...meeting at 345...well as usually la i rushed down...diaoz...and again as usual la both of them erm late also...well erm kenneth went to tuition on his own so yeah...anyways bought some snacks n sweets n drinks...but no one took them la lolx...so sorry la me erm was not in the mood also...was kinda erm...wierd feeling n all...leanne n kenneth both came in with an annoyed feel so yeah...didnt talk much until later...so yeah anyways...was actually kinda reluctunt to go for tuition...cause i was gonna miss the replay of VMA....lolx hope its correct but yeah...cause miss the live one yesterday...hmm dunno if its live but yeah lolx...so argh very tempted to watch...den erm thot about the O lvl that was coming very soon...so yeah went for tuition...did a maths 2 question n was really erm irritated n all so decided to do other subjects...

so yeah i realise i got con by timothy -.- zzz he told me i was gonna get erm a GREEN BOUNCING BALL!!...n in the end i got a HAMSTER lolx so yeah haha its kinda cute la...but really didnt expect it la...so yeah ok well was thinking of a name for the HAMSTER...argh its sleeping now so erm cant check if its a boy or girl lolx so yeah...anyways wanted to name it HAMSTERVEIL lolx from Lilo n Stitch the movie? lolx...so yeah den heard that my friends named it erm Paris lolx...kinda cool name la...mayb i shud just add a ! in front lolx....!Paris...sound so cute haha...anyways yeah my mom wants me to put it erm at the back where my dog is so i m like siaoz....later get eaten up zzz lolx...so yeah gonna put it in my room haha...zz well partly she scared of the hair...zzz like who cares la...zzz i rather have my dog in my room also...hahaha...so sad...anyways my house is like turning into a zoo lolx...i have fishes all over the place...erm a dog...a hamster...and prawns lolx...if u consider lizards as pets i have like 2 lolx that erm hide at my book shelves n all yeah lolx...

Quote of the Day..."now i have 2 pets to talk to n love...well wish that special someone will b my 3rd >_<"

anyway

My Chemical Romance life

2005-09-10T21:55:00.000+08:00

ok today dinner was not at Genghis Khan(zzz thx timothy for the correction)...anyways it is at park mall n the name is erm Kublah Khan Mongoleon BBQ Restaurant...ok so yeah...the place was kinda erm...have a mongoleon feel...yeah ok la not say very nice or anything...ok so the first thing i saw was erm the japanese food?...ok so yeah the maki were not too bad la...cause it was erm covered if green "eggs"...i thot they were prawn eggs but yeah prawn eggs r orange? so lolx...watever la it was not bad...den i took the cold noodles...one of my fav la..but it sux...not cold....n erm the saunce is so blend can hardly taste anything...argh disgusting....ok my 2nd fav is the cold TOFU!!! but of cause la since the cold noodles sux the tofu sux too...argh...2 down..disgusting sh!t...ok den i ate the pasta...not bad...the hawiian pizza has 2 layers...the top is all the cheese green pepper etc...btm was the ham pineapple etc...so anyways it was not bad....lolx...erm ate practically everything they had...not very fantastic la...that include the dessert!!! OMG la...how can u go to a restaurant without them serving gd SWEET DESSERTS...the mango pudding sux...btw they didnt ahve must desserts so yeah...sux la...there were only 2 different kinds of cake -.- ok the cakes were not bad...but yeah not very fantastic...anyways i kinda like the tenpayaki food haha...u get to erm take as much as u like...so yeah...the beef was erm raw...well obviously lolx...anyways yeah erm they were kinda erm...frozen like ice shavings lolx...so like i pull a bundle out...it kinda broke up like erm lolx shave ice...there was a cracking sound too -.- so yeah haha kinda funny...took some chicken...it was the same...ok yeah so gave it to the cook...he had a metre long chopstick...den placed the food onto a heated table...u no like most tapanyaki...lolx so yeah erm...kinda cute la see him cook it...he was like tossing the food with a pair of chopsticks...1m long -.- lolx...the finale was kinda cool...he erm brought the food to the side n erm...dropped it into a bowl lolx...it was nice la...sorry hard to explain it thru typing must go see for yourself lolx...so yeah...den after dinner drop by my cousin's cafe..

well the place is at queentown there i think...near the super big IKIA...so yeah nice place...well so she let us sample brownies lolx a total of 11 different kinds...there was erm double chocolate...well i cant remember the names so yeah lolx too many la...well not too bad la...some were really gd like the double chocolate...haha so yeah erm super full now with all that food in me...sigh really gonna blow sia...well now at home feel so lonely again haha...so sad...very i guess i just have to enjoy wat is left of my birthday haha..

Quote of the Day..."loneliness is back once again"

OMG -.-

2005-09-10T16:26:00.000+08:00

well ok today was the worse day ever la...wat the hell sia its my birthday...and wat have i done the whole morning?...NOTHING!!! sianz so bored...so yeah...woke up at 845 so i wont miss the one n only AVATAR: The Last Air Bender!!! hahaha it was kinda cool la...but too short le...only for half and hour... but once again THANK YOU NICKOLODEON!!! haha...ok so yeah...watched tv for the rest of te morning/and dozing of once in awhile...its kinda boring u no -.-...thot mayb there was something special la...but yeah NOTHING HAPPENED...zzz so bored...so sianz sia...

so yeah thx for the sms kenneth and hmmm k idiot sms me around like 4+ a few mins ago haha...asking if i wanna go out n all...suddenly became so awake haha cause i was bored the whole morning...but anyways yeah...its kinda hard la cause the fact is its gonna rain...and me leaving for dinner soon haha...gonna go eat at erm kangaskan? lolx dunno how to spell la but yeah...dunno wat it is la but heard is quite popular...so watever la...anyways...tim told me wat they got for me...was kinda shock when he said BOWLING BALL -.-!! swt!! haha i mean its cost a bomb la...shared by 4 people...lets see hmm the cheapest ball around 150? so each person is like erm 30+? lolx zzz...den realise it was a GREEN bouncing ball hahha...at least i wont b feelingso erm...dunno wierd? cause i dun really erm accept expensive stuff if u no wat i mean yeah...

anyways the whole day was rather just bored and filled with love sick...zzz here comes my mood swing again haha...wah lao dunno la just kept thinking of that person loh....i thot about it n felt that telling that person i love u was a bad idea...partly because the way that person treat me has changed la...and i dunno...still cant 4get that person sia...feel so lonely n all >_< sux sia i shud b happy so hahaha...

Quote of the Day..."love was never found in my heart...it has been giving to someone and that person never returned it..."

The hope is gone

2005-09-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

haha i 4got to write about the part where i met my ex chemistry teacher Mr Wang Juinn haha...was kinda wierd to see him in an arcade lolx...well yeah he saw us n was shocked too so yeah haha...n i was honoured to shake his hand sia lolx he wished me happy birthday haha...so yeah...

well today was kinda crappy cause was playing dota til 3am...yeah den 4got to put alarm clock...so yeah woke up at 1054...suppose to meet at 11 at thomson to study...zzz so yeah rush loh...haha den reach tehre 1130 le...den i did a chemisty paper...not that hard la but yeah....

10!!
9!!
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2!!
1!!
HAPPY BIRHTDAY!!! haha lolx its erm 12midnight now haha...so happy hahaha...sigh

anyways back to today's topic..well erm lolx...so yeah after the chem paper i did math...was easy too..lolx...erm den k bud felt kinda bored n wanted to paly arcade...me also la since i got my ghost squad card for my birthday haha...so yeah...den we decided to go play 1hr lan den go back n study...zzzwell obviously it didnt happen as planned...so yeah got owned in battlefield...zzz...den later erm kenneth...jin yi...qi chao...terence tay...joo shiong...yong yi....came to join us in a 4v4 dota match haha...well was owning them with my slayer...until the ending part got owned back haha...so yeah was fun la...although everyone were very...erm smelly haha...zzz..anyways yeah came home...ate dinner..blah blah blah...den erm had a birthday cake...zzzwell not my birthday yet la..but watever...so yeah it was a blueberry cake...not bad la...den got a present from my dad...well i got a watch...zzz wth -.- i rather have the money spent on the watch...zzz its some all n ugly watch lolx only old man wear diaoz...like wth..zzz...hahaha so yeah loh...sigh...den erm...at 12midnight my sis came in n gave me sweets lolx...all green so yeah haha...happy la its GREEN SWEETS!!!..my fav haha...so yeah den dota again with my seniors from bowling...blah blah blah....den got a sms from nicholas tong my god bro haha...his birthday was erm..yesterday lolx!!...and from k bud...zzz still dun wan tell me the birthday present they got for me lolx must b condoms or something...zzz...and not for getting the phone call from k idiot haha...thx friends for wishing me a happy birthday...so yeah...not saying this year's birthday was a complete desaster but...really wish that someone would give me a hug n a kiss but yeah haha wth...zzz shud not being saying that but haha...dotz...haha cant wait for tml birthday present from nickolodeon lolx....they r gonna play AVATAR: The Last Air Bender...on chl 32...omg been waiting for it for ages...so yeah THANK YOU NICKLODEON!!!lolx

Quote of the Day..."happiness is here once again but will it stay for long?"

A glimpse of hope

2005-09-09T03:20:00.000+08:00

wow yesterday was a nice day la...hahareally enjoyed myself...thx friends haha for being there for me n to celebrate my birthday...really happy to see you people haha...aynways the day started kinda sucky cause it was raining...zzz how can it b happy when its raining...so yeah we...k bud...general xu...jingshun and me went to raiders...reach there about 1015...but not open yet so waited awhile...well realise bryan was not gonna come so it would b a 3v3 dota match...den...yeah haha surprise!!...kenneth actually came la...even though he say he was gonna study...so yeah wanna thank u for being there haha...so yeah we went to play dota...argh the rain was really a sign haha...i got trasahed in dota!!...sigh wat a drag...use juggernaut till like sh!t...so yeah...den 2nd match used my fav crystal maiden...at least got some decent kills...haha...btw wanna thank Raymond and friends...liang hao...for playing lan with me although we erm never talk much during the game...lolx anyways after the dota match...js xu kx ken n i erm played halflife haha...it was darn fun la...started the first nuke...n killed everyone haha...so yeah...super fun...till the whole of raiders...power down lolx!!..first time sia...sianz thot mayb dun need to pay cause all the coms down etc...in the end had to pay $970...sorry ah kenneth...diaoz after paying for the lan he no money eat lunch...kinda sad la sit there watch us eat...erm yeah...sigh...

anyways after lunch kx and kenneth went off to get something...so me bryan(just came) xu n js went to jubilee to play arcade...haha as usual la...erm bryan played parapara paradise lolx...erm the spotlight was on him la lolx...everyone was watching him do those moves lolx...kinda funny yeah...so i got a ghost squad card from bryan as birthday present haha...kinda happy cause i lost mine...it about $60+...zzz so yeah anyways the day pass kinda fast la...den went with bryan to suntec to meet up with my old friends haha...went marche to celebrate my birthday lolx...so happy la...everyone(there was bryan...harry...edwin..chris...uncle boon hock...uncle william...alex n me...we were like enjoy the time we had loh lolx...talking laughin at the old n lame russell peters jokes lolx...n talking about dota...anyways...yeah we decided to play dota when we reach home...so yeah reach home about 11+ den started to play...erm kinda fun la...so yeah...now erm 3am...lolx just finish 3 games of dota...zzz kinda tired n sleepy so gonna go sleep haha...

o yeah the presents lolx i got a harry potter book from jingshun and general xu...ghost squad card from bryan...a NEW GREEN!!! compact optical mouse...and a demo for dungean n dragons...and erm...GUILD WARS!!! lolx guild wars is a game la...but dunno my com can handle...haha well wait till i upgrade my com after Os...haha anyways that about all...o yeah n the birthday card...haha kinda funny la...show u guys next time lolx

Quote of the Day..."though darkness has fallen there is always a ray of light...giving hope to the people"

sadness was there once again

2005-09-06T23:15:00.000+08:00

omg cant believe i my writing another entry tonite...but really feeling damn down now...firstly...the one i truely love has rejected my love...feel so depressed now...y is this always happening to me? wat have i done to deserve all this...i really like that person la...den that person have to love someone else...zzz...life is so unfair...but y cant u just make it fair for once...love is the one thing that has made me live on...without it i m lost so alone never to b found again...

secondly la...erm the person i love likes someone that i no!!! omg! haha...actually not really laughing but yeah it happens all the time rite? i mean its like so common that u like someone den that someone like someone else close to u...the hurt is more intense that way haha so u get hurt more la...its the reason y life is so unfair...

heh sound so happy rite?...well it is all a cover up man...the real pain n suffering is covered up by small little happiness...but still it will surface when i reach home...its just like the girl tiffany from the america's top model...lots of attitude...still laughing when she got kicked...got f*cked by the host...but still showed no mercy to fight back...den walk off...sound abit like me i think...haha except its me n my dad...so yeah after it all she realise the love n all but its kinda hard to express urself when u have a hatred that stops u...

really depressed about not being able to have that special someone...all that sleepless nights...gone to waste? i dun think so la...thinking of that person just brightens up my life...talking to that special someone makes me wanna jump >_<
sigh i guess love will never b there...who is that special someone?...izzit really not that person? i will cry for days but that is nth...hope it wont interfere with my birthday...but really wish that person could come n celebrate that day with me...that is all i m asking...hope u r reading this >_<

Quote of the day..."loving someone so much that losing them would make u do crazy things..."

Crying will not change the fact that someone love u

2005-09-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

heh kinda sad suddenly...the feel of hearing somethings kinda make me feel sad...someone i love would not b there haha wat can i say...i mean that person dun even no its my birthday rite? haha so wat the heck...its very sad la hor...people that i wish were going r not...so yeah la...kinda sad n depressed lolx...mayb erm like its a erm suprise lolx like on that day suddenly everyone will b there for me haha...like i wish la...pls la hor this is not a dream...nor a fantasy...this sh!t won happen de...zzz sad n lost in love...

so yeah been kinda long since i last blog...really wanted to but some stuff i wanted to say have to remain a secret...it maybe known one day but yeah its not the time haha...anyways i was kinda sad la cause i have been zzz lame la but excited about my upcoming birthday la haha...cause i will b 16!!! haha sweet 16 leh...how i wish like erm follow the mtv those people...get a car on thier 16 birthday...have a ball party with all thier friends...erm have watever i wan...n the wans that i love will b there...haha but yeah la like i m rich...pls loh that will cost more den the allowance times infinity...haha i could wish but its not gonna happen...

love was never there n will never b...its kinda sad rite? haha...really n seriously kinda sad that i m born...n that i m here is this world...its like a pain for everyone including myself so yeah y must this always happen...really like wanna go die u no...it will stop the pain...stop all the things people say to me that really hurt so bad that i just wanna cry its kinda sad but wat can u do its life...life is always so unfair n it always hurt u y must this happen to me >_< really sad...its kinda hard to accept the fact...but yeah its been there staring rite back at u...u wanna change it but cant its like history haha it cant b changed...it has become a fact but i just erm got the courage la...but den i think it will change my life foreva but pls dun heard tell anyone about it k? really cant stand it if u did...i will really get so broken down that jumping WILL become n option...i m haha kinda shock that ur reaction was kinda bogus but really...yeah but was sad la heh...sorry for telling u that i like u i no its wat stressful...but yeah haha i m sorry k? haha kinda jealous for that person u like haha...really sorry that erm i told u my love haha...i m feeling kinda sad that i say that >_< it just got me into a worser state...y must all the people i like have someone else in mind? izzit really that unlucky in love...or because of somethings that i have change n done that made this so impossible...love was never there n it will never will..

btw heard a song called rough draft by yellowcard it relaly made me wanna cry...ur leaving me ur leaving me >_< i dun wanna b wrong but yeah it has already begun...i m so sorry cant really forgive myself for this...pls dun tell anyone about it...cause the sadness will always b there...another hit n i think i m out of here...haha jumping will not b that painful i guess...but yeah mayb i try something else...really wanna b with u but y must u do this to me >_<

Quote of the Day..."love was never there n will never will till u r there with me"

love was never there

2005-08-29T20:30:00.000+08:00

YAY!! my dog is all rite!!haha i m so happy la...like every parent would feel when u hear that ur child is alrite haha...really happy so hear that she is alrite >_<...was kinda pissed la...cause i had to redo this freaking entry agian...fucked up com...always giving me shit...argh...dun really feel like bloggin anymore...the pain n sorrow is erm coming back la...

anyways the day was kinda sucky...failed my practical...broke a glass container...n some other shit...mayb i will go post again another time...just lost it sia...haha

thx for being there for me last nite kidiot n k friend...really wanna thank u for hearing me out n all...haha...nice blog entry about friends k friend...kinda meaningful la...but still somethings cant b done alone la...cause there will b like no effect n all haha...need two hands to clap..so yeah

Quote of the Day..."friends will always b there if u call upon them"

why must it always b this way?

2005-08-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

fucking cb la...i cant take it anymore ok...wat is there to live for when all ur sorrows keep coming back...another day and another day of sadness...wth manz y is my life so fucked up...this is seriously the last time i can put myself together again...my heart is really broken up i cant take it anymore...y must this always happen to me? everytime every minute some fuck shit will happen n ruin my life...

just realise that my dog is limping...her right leg erm injured or something dunno wat happen...really cant believe it...first thing that came to my mind was the bastard that brought me to this world...that fucking fucker...thot that he was the cause of all this fuck shit...who else could have caused it...he has been beating her for the pass few days...is that a gd explaination or wat?...fucking retard...all he care is about his fucking work...about those down syndrome children...has he ever thot of me for a change?...well of cause he has la...but wat the fuck...he never listens he only do wat he think is rite...but of cause la its not...that fucking bastard...i dunno man...really wish that someone will b there for me...besides my family...which i dun fucking care about...there r a few who i relaly wish will b able to help me...but...i dun think they no wat they r saying actually helps...

ok so about my dog...its injured...my sis came n tried to examine...wow ah fucking trying to impress me with ur bio rite? going to b a fucking doctor rite?? fuck urself la...nabei CCB...cant u fucking hear the pain? she is making noise not to tell u she love u...but to fucking tell u she is screaming cause she is HURT!!...fucking idiot la...so i went to tell my parents about it...my fucking father dun even care about it...my mom came n give some fucked up speech...eat shit ok?...so like they really care...den i told both of them that they shud go tell that fucking bastard to stop hitting her(my dog)...cause if he dun i will start hitting him...den my freaking sis trying to act big again kp me...i was fucked up so i slapped her...didnt realise wat i did but i now feel the sorrow n the sadness of slapping someone...its felt just like wat happen 2 years back when boris slapped me...i realise that i have lost something...that love...its has been lost...well not really lost cause i lost that love since i was primary 5...things have never been the same...fuck u sis i relaly hated u was ruining my childhood as specially wat u have done to change our life when u were sec 1...i cant forgive u for that...but m sorry for slapping u...but i had warn u not to cross the line b4...i hit the fan...the chair...n even tried to bang down the fucking door to ur room...if that is not enough warning den too bad u fucking idiot...u r sippose to b smart!!...an A grade student...tsk tsk...it shows how low ur EQ is i fucking dun care if u get into the best JC or get scholarships...all i wan is for u to understand me...n to do something that oculd make me forget wat u did in the past...its not hard...but its not easy too...but i hope to see u at least try...

really sorry for slapping u tonite...it really was not a gd day...never felt to heart broken b4...the pain is so intense i can really feel it...i guess it my heart problems again...i thot it left me for gd but no its back n here to haunt me again...life has come to a point where there is no meaning...i relaly didnt wish for this to happen...but seriously death as come to haunt my thoughts yet again...doing something like this can really mess up my life...n many others....the ones i truely love...sorry cause this is really the last straw...

Quote of the Day..."death is always an option but choosing it comes many reponsiblilities"

Another F*ck up day

2005-08-27T21:58:00.000+08:00

CCB!!! i cant believe i had to redo this F*cking post again la...nabei...F*ck la...anyways....i m freaking pissed la...F*cking b4stard whole day go wack my baby...nabei...F*CKING F*CKER...he better watch out...one day i will freaking call SPCA n report about some F*CKER abusing my baby...wat the F*CK is his F*CKING problem la...nabei...if go eat sh!t or something la...having u in this world of mine is really a pain...either u go or i go...cause i really cant take it anymore...one day...u will make me do things i cant imagine of...just u wait...i can imagine myself grabbing u by the collar...shouting at u...n freaking tear ur F*CKING face off...F*CKING CCB U BETTER WATCH OUT!!

anyways was not that piss after writing it out....n also talking to someone haha...well that 5mins of chatting was quite enjoyable till she had to go...anyways feeling better now...but still freaking pissed that i actually let that B4stard do such a thing to my baby...well wat can i say...doing wat i had imagine earlier would really make the situation worse...but seriously la...can u feel the pain n sorrow in me?...hearing the screams n not able to do anything about it...anyways listening to i believe by weilian...suddenly got the sadden feeling...really wanna cry yet crying does not do much all i lose is the water in me n not the pain or sorrow...

anyways was quite shock about something...i just realise i wrote part of my sorrow for my prelim 2 composition -.- really regretting about writing it...sure kenna counselling again...sigh when they ask i think i just say its a made up story haha...hope they believe...cross fingers...

anyways today was a really wasted day yet again...cause i haven studyed yet >_< woke at 9am watch tv...THATS SO RAVEN!! best show ever...anyways den rush to raiders for lan n realise they already started playing without me...5v5 dota 5.94c...felt pang sei n left out...as usual la...den wasted 3 hours there loh standing there watching them paly...den when arcade for awhile...saw bryan play parapara...den didnt feel like palying le...ghost squad also no one palying so we left...went 7eleven to buy sweets haha 1 big packet la...so yeah went to cut my hair at thomson...regretted cause now i look like sh!t...anyways den went home...slack for 1hr watching tv/sleep at the same time...den k idiot call me ask me go meet him at J8 so i went out again...walked around with him n bought another big packet of sweets haha...i think i meh die of diebeties...i like a walking pinyada(hope i spell correctly)...someone hit me den i will vomit out all the sweets i ate lolx...ew quite sick...anyways den went for church...den came home n got pissed by that F*CKER...anyways really needa go study le tonite...thx k idiot for being there for me...

Quote of the Day..."wat to do when ur close one abuses ur baby?...i will F*CK THAT F*CKING F*CKER...BETTER WATCH OUT!!!"

Without u life is never the same

2005-08-25T18:53:00.000+08:00

dingdong...haha kinda happy today la...actually i dunno y...doh...just felt that living in this world without some people can make me feel sad...haha...anyways i felt happy cause i found song lyrics!! haha well most of MCR songs have meaning in them lolx...well just read the lyrics n u can feel the sadness...the sorrow...the pain of losing someone...and wat u will do for someone u love...haha well that is wat i feel about this song....here is the lyrics...

MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE - Thank You for the Venom

Album: Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge (2004)

Sister, I'm not much a poet, but a criminal
And you never had a chance
Love it, or leave it, you can't understand
A pretty face, but you do so carry on,
and on,
and on

I wouldn't front the scene if you payed me
I'm just the way that the doctor made me, on,
and on,
and on,
and on
Love is the red of the rose on your coffin door
What's life like, bleeding on the floor,
the floor,
the floor

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to beleive

[Chorus]
So give me all you poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

Preach all you want, but who's gonna save me?
I keep a gun on the book that you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load
Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpeant sun
Beneath the mark of the scar that makes you run,
and run,
and run,
and run

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
Give me a reason to beleive

[Chorus:]
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

You'll never make me leave
I wear this on my sleeve
You wanna follow something
Give me a better cause to lead
Just give me what I need
Give me a reason to beleive

[Chorus:] [2x]
So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

So give me all your poison
And give me all your pills
And give me all your hopeless hearts
And make me ill
You're running after something
That you'll never kill
If this is what you want
Then fire at will

well watcha think? haha well u can really feel the song if u heard it lolx...anyways hope u people r still reading lolx...sigh i guess i will b posting song lyrics to show my emotion lolx...cause seriously the song lyrics really show how i feel at time moment of time...lolx...sad rite?

well today was kinda ok la...the day in sch was usual loh...den went BK to study til about 6 with jason...well didnt expect him to study with me lolx...but yeah he did...well he was like so interested with the RGS girl i think haha so like kept teasing him loh...lolx...well we talked for awhile...den i realise how sad it some people were...well i mean u shud not erm destroy a friendship just because of a stupid misunderstanding rite? i mean...ur friend could have said something he shud not have...n u get into some sh!t...but i mean...as a friend u shud just 4give him rite? well i guess it is hard at times but friends shud not become enemies just because of some misunderstanding u no?...and the fact is that both parties r stubburn n dun talk to each other...pls guys!! listen la...no matter who is wrong...u 2 shud like get back to get...4get about the past la...i mean its has been like wat almost 2 years? since u guys talked to each other?

kinda sad la that friendships r so easily broken...wish that all my friends will stay as my friends 4eva haha...will b kinda hard but lets all try k? lolx!!

Quote of the Day..."Friends in need...call me...i will b there to help"

Dawn of the Dead

2005-08-23T17:01:00.000+08:00

i just cant beleive it la...got pang sei...but wat the hack i mean its not his fault la...but just felt very sad la...feel that my inside is dead la...dunno y but wat the hack like anybody cares rite?...

who the hack would believe that i wan to study hard n get a single digit...do u? i dun think anyone will feel that i had even a chance to pass my O lvl...well wat the hack i dun freaking care man...its just another person thots that i shud not bother...the thot of being abandon by someone it kinda feel like being rejected by ur one true love...but who the hack cares rite? most would just laugh at u n make a joke out of it...i mean its just words wat can words do?...well if u r really down mayb it can just make u go jump or something like wat the hack u r just another person in this whole world...who the F*ck would care if u r dead...well just mayb ur family would cry by the coffin filled wif the sorrow...but wat the hack...in a few years times they would move on with thier lifes do u think they would F*cking remember about u?...well mayb la but wat the hack u r dead just move on manz...

have u thot about being dead?...well i have...dreams may come true if u r willing to let them happen...but wat the hack dying is nth...its just part of ur life...izzit really hard trust in someone even after being with that person for a few months? i mean y cant everyone just believe in one other izzit really that hard to? y does it have to b so...i dunno manz...its just plain wrong...living in this world is really not worth it...all u get is sadness...so wat if u r happy for just a few hrs...and sad for the rest of ur life?...i would really hope that i would just go on n leave this place...i mean wat is there to live for if u r not there? there is no point...living n moving on is so hard when u r alone...never felt so lonely but yea that is wat life is rite? all it can do is crash ur dreams...but if u really dream of doing something den go for it...feelin sad n thinking about committing suicide like me is not a real option...wow...just realise i dream about this like last night...anyways people out there who reads my blog...really wish u will go all out for ur dreams...n not follow my foot steps...life is short but u can make it a long one by making gd use of every second in ur life

Quote of the day..."if u feel abandoned...call 91116793...n u will find someone who will always b there"

DingDong...

2005-08-22T16:33:00.000+08:00

DINGDONG!...PRELIM 2 is here!! weee omg i cant believe that there is a second prelim haha...well actually guessed that there was gonna b one la...quite obvious la lolx...anyways i m kinda happy that there is a 2nd prelim la...well partly due to my sucky prelim results la 42points haha...can go eat sh!t le la...

wow started a study group la...but apparently nobody wanna study with me...except for yeekai haha K idiot...sigh well cant force anyone if they dun wanna study as a group...but kinda sad la...anyways cant believe it la...that day i think it was last thursday la...just started studying at bk when this crazy bast4rd came n kp about my math TYS...saying its lousy etc...wth thot he was ok la mayb just talk awhile den go le...but NO! he gotta start say alot of crap la...say he is the best can even single handedly beat everyone single guy for gang 369...say he got wat secret found it from a dustbin?(correct me if i m wrong k idiot) anyways i was like OMG! wow a secret like i care...so i say i dun care la...by den i felt he was really spastic n insane...he even dared me to call police la...but of cause being a kind guy n seeing the fact that he is insane i didnt...wow den he damn proud sia talk to k idiot...say he damn zai etc...he even kp about the pm n sm lee...i was kinda piss la but in the end we both just diam diam n study...he was "talking" to us la...really f*cker sia...wasted like 10-15 mins of my study time...

sad la...nobody study with me...den today dunno sia the whole day darn tired...sigh cant study properly...den nobody to study with kan sianz...decided to go home n get my history book lolx...dunno y got a sudden craving to study history...so yeah la...i guess i will like go to the swimming pool to study or something...cant study at home la...unless someone calls me to go some where study..

wahaha didnt expect kenneth to reply my sms...diaoz in the end i rashed down to bk at thmson plaza to find that he not there yet -.-!! o well didnt really study much till he came...was talking with aaron who was there with 3 other friends...about the crazy guy lolx!! wow out that the crazy guy's name was george lolx...den they were like george george george of the jungle lolx...anyways...kenneth came like 550pm? diaoz study abit la history lol...well i guess the mood for studying history was erm...desttroyed when kenneth asked me to buy a mag for him..lolx -.-!! i guess i bought the wrong mag la...den he not happy lolx but its the same brand la how i no got to diff types lolx -.-!! den when to KFC to makan...sigh didnt feel like eating...dunno y but just didnt...den didnt feel like going home also...just sux la...i think i shud start having sleep over sia lolx was kinda fun when i had it last saturday...haha...sigh wasted the whole weekend...so i think i better go study haha...considering i didnt study much just now..

Quote of the day "if u get rejected...keep trying...someday that special someone will understand ur love"

Wat a wake up call...

2005-08-17T18:38:00.000+08:00

aiyo...cant believe myself...i wanna go jump le..but thinking its the 7th month better not haha dun wanna see things i dun wanna see...so sad la...i just realise how unprepared i m for the up coming O lvls...it is really a gd wake up call sia...started to work really hard for the first time haha...but seriously...if i dun i think i really can go jump le

wah lao prelims was terrible...didnt expect to fail so many..n do so badly for 3 subjects...the ones the i had so much faith in...math...a math...science...i cant believe it...i failed them all...n to think i thot i would get A1 for all 3 subjects...i guess i really am over confident...sigh

started studying hard since monday...never played any computer games...just dling songs while i studyed lolx...n watching mtv...sigh i really cant believe that i m working so hard...is this really a turning point in my life lolx...

hmm...y is everyone leaving Singapore?...izzit really such a bad place to live in?...y do people seek a better life...when the present is more den enough...r they able to leave behind thier memories to start afresh in another country? I just found out one of my friends gonna migrate to US in a few years time...so sad la...see so many friends...one by one leave singapore...so sad rite? first was my cousins...den my god bro...now my friend...y everyone wanna leave de? >_<

sigh gonna go do my math...really need the practice...btw just needa check if u people can hear the background music...cause its suppose to b helena by MCR...if there isnt pls tag on my board n tell me thx

Quote of the day..."losing that special someone will make u do anything to have them back"

RESULTS ARE OUT!!!

2005-08-12T16:41:00.000+08:00

wow ah...wat a day...got back my math prelim results...didnt do well at all -.-
i got back paper 1...57/80....thot maybe i still had hope for my A1..but den i remembered how badly done my paper 2 was...i was hoping mayb a miracle would happen...but it didnt...paper 2...46/100...can u believe it!!! failed la so sad sia...my first time failing a math paper...worse day of my life sia...how could i get 46...at least a 50 la just pass >_< wah lao sux manz...in the end total i had 59/100...that is wat? not even a B!!! wanna cry le...such a useless person simple math also cant do :'(

sianz den the result for chinese 'O' lvls omg...i cant believe only 3 failed the chinese O lvls..lolx i was obviously happy la...as there is a lesser chance i failed...but den i realise...2 failures from my class...den i started to panic again >_< could not help it sia...my class about 15 of us la...only 1 A1...the rest B n C...n 2 D7...i was so scared sia...den my teacher read out the marks...and so happen index no. 1 n 2 both failed thier chinese lolx...i was like yay!!! lolx sorry ashley...hahaha...wanted to jump around lolx too happy le i actually passed...although its just a C6 but can u actually believe it? i passed my chinese for the first time in my whole secondary sch year haha!!! weeeeeeeee

dotz...so sianz la so happen my english oral for O lvl also fell on the same day...haha was freaking nervous la...but when i started talking..i think...i would do very well la...the teachers were black(not being racist)...they were the best teachers ever la...except for the one on the rite who kept staring at mean like i put on lipstick or something -.- anyways...during the conversation...the question was kinda lame...she said,"wat is the one thing u wan to say to someone but couldnt"..i think cant really remember although it was just a few hours ago...got stm(short term memmory)...lolx i was like sticking my tongue out n smile/giggling dunno y lolx...the 2 teachers were giggling too la lolx lamez sia...o well i guess i would do well for that section...haha

sigh the day is somewat shrewed up...didnt do well for math...passed my chinese!! yay!!...had a great time during O lvl english oral...haha so i am quite happy cause 2 gd make 1 bad a gd lolx

quote of the day....."love cannot b destroyed...it can only b passed to another person"

Days of my chemical romance life...

2005-08-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

wahaha so happy to see my friends taggin my tagboard...friends 4eva!!!btw...i will never tell u the person's name :P haha at least mayb not now...

hmmm...the esplanade concert by CHS on sunday nite...was kinda erm...sucky?...the performance was terrible la...ok la not saying everything was bad...the sec sch choir n band were gd...luv the circle of life...it was perfect but hor...abit spastic la especially panda...he was like having fits la lolx...n the band playing Jericho was nice la...could feel the song lolx

monday was national day eve...as usual we have national day celebration...one word....SUX!!!...wah lao it was so eww -.- the mc were spastic...tryin to b damn entu...but at least it ended early...wah lao first time la so early dismiss den we the sec4 needa stay back sianz la...speech day wth i didnt even get anything nabui wasted my life away....was falling asleep...well fell asleep for about 10mins...lolx sibei sianz...

wow national day!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!! 40 years old le la...so fast...well the day was damn boring sia..nth to watch on tv...so played com almost the whole afternoon...den went my cousin's place n had a PARTY!! lolx...had pizza..chicken wings...and many other stuff...was kinda bored also la..besides all the screaming from my niece n nephew...the national day parade was...kinda sucky la i think its too messy le held at 5 diff location WAT WERE THEY THINKING!!! lolx mass chaos n so boring...lolx well at least got to see fireworks from my cous place lolx...but lasted for like 15s tops...but overall i guess it was a ok la...

diaoz today is doh boring...was doing nth la...besides sleeping -.- aiyo so bored...so tired...so sleep loh...sianz...the lion king 2 movie was so touching...so much love...kiara n coco(dunno if its correct lolx) such a loving couple >_< wish me n that person would turn out like them >_< haha...

Quote of the day "reach for the sky...ur dremas will come true(u wish la)"

Another F*ck up day

2005-08-06T21:29:00.000+08:00

wow wat another F*ck up day...woke up today n i thot it was gonna b a gd day but no...it always have to b the opposite -.-

the whole freaking day i was thinking of someone...the one i love truely...i dunno y but i cant think of anything else...i dunno wat is wrong wif myself...i thot mayb there was still hope..so i went to play maplestory...wanted to force myself not to think of that person...but soon it came back...n never left me since...sigh the day passed very slowly...all i can picture is that person's face in my mind...i could not stop thinking >_< n soon i fell asleep n dream about being with that person...wow m i kinda desperate to have that person by my side? lolx woke up n still thinking of the person...

was very moody after that...like i just lost someone so close to me...had to go to church for mass..but didnt feel like it...went there still thinking about that person...got kinda piss n frustrated...dunno y but it did -.- sux manz...

went to eat wif an irritated attitude...n my freaking father had to activate the switch n BOOM!!...i was in a heated arguement with him...well wat can i say he mess me up...F*ck me F*ck u...idiot sia...blah blah blah...say i not happy den leave...den i just walked off la wtf like i care about u like that...the way u treat me is sh!t la hor so just shutup n eat ur sh!t...well i had to go back cause was really hungry lolx...damn my stomach was...making wierd noises...from den i didnt say a word...was too piss/and still thinking of that person...really hope i had the courage to tell that person i luv u...

quote of the day "love is only a thing that makes the world go round"

Prelims almost over

2005-08-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

o wow the prelims r almost over...guess wat?...i shrewed everything up...well actually not all...have confidence that my ss will get distinction lolx weeee...but i feel that i m over confident in my math...thus not studying...n therefore...shrew the prelims lolx wah lao cant believe it la...no A1 for maths -.- it is like having Sh!t for breakfast...argh sianzation..

wat to do in life when the person u love is not there for u...actually hor i can still live with it..but in pain sob sob..crying does not change anything so me gonna stay strong ...argh!!! like superman muhahaahah....notz -.-!!...sob sob lolx...wah such a f*cked up life lolx...overdose of studies make u sick but overdose of sweet gives u the power to b CANDYMAN!!! THE POWER IS YOURS!!!...lolx sounds like er...captain planet? lolx

O lvls r coming le so fast...but really wish it was over so i can die n rot there...shrew my life for being such a boring one...boring!! yawnz..sianz i like sleep for 5/6 of my life la.........can u believe it!!! OMG!

how u people like my blog? y no one tag de so sianz...anyone can teach me how to like make my songs play again n again? it like stop once the song is over...sigh so sad blogs r so hard to make...took me like 2hrs just to get it done...2 WHOLE HRS!!!that is like 2whole hrs of sweet overdose -.-!!

argh feeling cold suddenly swt...hope there is no...ahhh!! lolx watever...so like erm gonna go study my history for tml paper..wish me luck!!

Quote of the day "love has 2 doors u just gotta no which one leads to happiness"

HAHA found a new blogskin

2005-08-01T22:40:00.000+08:00

Monday, Augest 1st, 2005

OMG!! haha finally had the time to think about my blog...can u imagine how long i have stop blogging? lolx sigh i guess the mood for blogging is back...hope u peeps like my new blogskin...its one of my fav bands now MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE!! haha they rox!! just listen to the music...can u feel the sadness...the agony..the PAIN!...its a very touching story of a gf...dead that is haha...n come alive..like OMG?...lolx go see the MTV on Http://music.yahoo.com hope u guys enjoy the song!! haha..its called HELENA btw...

erm anyone can help me...how to make the sound keep repeating ah?..its stop after the songs ended...anyways...hope u guys enjoy my new layout..gotta go slp liaoz..diaoz so early but yeah..tml still got geog MCQ lolx -.-!! go sch for 1hr15mins den come home wat a waste of time..lolx..PEACE OUT!

quote of the day "when u wan it,u dun have it..when u have, u dun wan it"

CAn see my blogskin?!

2005-03-20T15:27:00.000+08:00

Sunday, March 20th, 2005

awww man anyone here cant c the blogskin? pls write on my tagboard...sigh amix help me do another blogskin ba ^^ heh
woah yesterday at 1130pm i(Eternalis) married Deus Encarmine in paladinRO haha me a bard n she a dancer...lolx so cute ^^
then we started to play wif the marriage skills...haha like i miss you...then teleport each other around the map haha so fun ^^

hmm...today my friend n his family coming back from cruise to no where >_< so sad i could not go with them...boohooo
heard the ship i think its the super virgo...had a cinema that sits over 1000 people!!! and an arcade that is like bigger thenthe one at marina bay!!
o man...i am so disappointed that i miss the trip boohoo :'(

hmm just got back from my aunties house it was her birthday!!! haha went there to see my neice n nephew all so cute de
then round around like little kids...they are little kids lolx anyways...they were like fighting over this sword made of lego blocks?
haha talk like innocent children then give me this...want to cry and those watery eyes...argh make me so heart broken lolx...then made another one for them
haha so cute loh...then came the cutting of cake lolx even better all crow around my aunt...thier grandmother...ready to blow the candles
haha so kawii >_< then it was time....they all rush to the candles and started blowing lolx blow blow blow!!!then the 3year old Alex
took a cherry lick it...dip it into the cream again and continue licking the cherry >_< disgusting...lolx but was so funny >_<
and he was having a flu? eewww...hope i dont fall ill after eating the cake...cause i got bowling competition this coming thurday

wow so fast loh march holiday ending le...today the last day >_< sigh then the bowling competition this thursday following tuesday n thursday..
anyone going to go support me? at marina south Victor superbowl....pls come support me...the team ^^ haha

Marcx turned into Candyman!!! Give me all the candies!!!...3:27pm

Back into Bloggin Central

2005-03-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

Monday, March 14th, 2005

haha finally i got my account name and password to work....yay!!!haha by the way this blog skin was done up by my friend...Amix haha
not bad right? found the right person to do up my blogskin wooppyyy!!sigh do u notice the way i write? haha no more singlish le...trying to write
proper ENGLISH!!!lolx all thx to my english teacher Mr. P lolx...must start to speak proper english so when O lvls oral comes...i dont say anything that will chrew up my
english marks...haha my eyelids r like so freaking heavy...so tired from all the smsing to amix thanking her for her work of art...and amanda...for pestering me to support
her blog lolx =P haha

like OMG tml 8am reach school to study science then followed by 3 hours of maths -.- den chinese...hope te stupid wu lao shi can
like give chance so i can rest and get ready to go for our class party!!! at mrs llloooonnnnnggg house lolx...haha bring marshmellows...
woot i cant wait to BBQ them and put them into my mouth lolx...will b like so freaking sweet!!! lolx..

the most tragic thing happen just moments before i started writing my blog...i sold my robe of symphony in outwar!!! i was like WTF n cursing while my
mom was in my room...its all her fault...distract me :'( boohoo...i was like shocked...but reacted quickly...when to start wacking people to get money....unfortunately...
not in time...the robe was cope by some bastard!!!...sigh sorry for the language...so sad feel like crying...

..............THANK YOU AMIX FOR THE BLOG SKIN!!! haha...dont say i never thank u n put them in BOLD hor =P lolx
anyways hope you all like the music haha...cant wait to go catch the spongebob square pants movie...haha...here another word of wisdom..
"when eating banana always...i repeat...ALWAYS peel of the yellow skin...before consuming it" haha enjoy the music cya around guys

marcx....just turned into CANDYMAN muhahahaah...11:06pm

Wat a f*cked up nite -.-

2004-09-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

bullsh!t sia...f*cking moron....2pid dad think he so great kpkb...go suck ur own sh!t la....son of a B!tch....damn f*cking angry loh...think the dog is like a wat punching bag? ccb wack her she already live in such a small hse...jack russel leh of cause like to come out n play la...u lock her up there u think she like izzit? ccb den still kpkb so much for f*ck? she smart n able to come out at least gd rite ruther den stay there like f*ck...den u also no she scare of u still shout at her make her pee...den complain she likes to pee outside her area WAT THE F*CK....all the peeing sh!t is because of u...dont u understand that? wat f*cking excuse do u have man ccb...think u so great ah?...whole day come back dun even care about us...first think go check if she come out or make a mess WAT THE F*CK u think u wat kpkb so much she understand straight away ah? den say sorry? come on la u talk to a dog? wat u tryin to say u 2pid as a dog izzit?....2pid sh!t how useless can u get...so long le loh kp so much i never say anything....ccb still think u damn f*cking great go s*ck ur own d*ck la ccb...(all to my father who dun even listen)

sian ah come back in a bad mood....dun wan to study le...sure can remember one...so f*cking sian...u no that time i kp ms lim(form teacher) because of u loh ccb!!!....(to my father) u n her damn F*cking the same...all act big act wei da go eat sh!t la...

changed the song to eh 4got the song name lolx...request from a friend of mine hope u all enjoy it cheers...no quote today feelin so piss to think of anything rite now....

Final Year Exam -.- Siansation

2004-09-17T16:11:00.000+08:00

sian ah fye lai le....wat to do...so long never touch blog sorry guys...been studyin quite alot lately....sianz cant afford to get retain ah....been slacking the 3/4 of the year lolx....sigh wat to do i m a slacker...siansation has arrived....after so much slacking dun feel like studyin but I HAVE TOO -.-!!! so sad

sigh...been tryin my best to save up for the bdaex presents i promised...n now i only got $30...that wat i get for my allowance rite -.- 1wk $30...

o well..lolx gonna finish up my blog later...gonna go paly a little gb now

Counting down for my Birthday ^^

2004-09-07T18:31:00.000+08:00

wah so fast hor...gonna b 15 le yippy...but sadly cant drink -.- but who cares i always get the chance to drink lolx....anyone got buy bdaex present for me? heh

sigh today wake up at 930....den remembered got english lesson in sch at 10...i was so sleepy i din bother n went back to slp...dne at around 11 2pid english teacher called -.-!! gave me a shock sia...sigh wat to do den ask for my mom hp no. sianz ah!!! i was like fakin i was sick lolx wth wat a lousy liar i m when i m sleepy -.-!!! den my mom called n ask...u sick ah? diao but sigh c wat happens to me tonite when they get back...dun think they will scold me at least i hope...my bdae in 3 days time loh...confirm ground me one la...den fye also coming sianz cant go out le....gd bye to the civilisation....anyone care to help me in my studies?...sigh 15 still so childish n bo liao haha born this way blame my parents...

o ya my kor bdae also coming soon leh lolx nicholas tong...haha he was born like wat less den a day earlier den me loh lolx so special...den after my bdaex is sep 11...i was like y cant that day b my bdaex....den everyone will remember me lolx will b so famous...o well who cares

finally got the iwebmusic to work n changed the music hope u people enjoy it...music requests r still ON!!! but y no one requesting? so sad lets hope people will request for me lolx for my bdaex lolx...was lookin for the bdaex song den put it on my blog on friday lolx o well enjoy the music...let rock!!

Wat to do without u? :(

2004-09-03T21:05:00.000+08:00

omg its been like how many daez since i touch my blog -.-!!! sorry guys...feeling the stress loh omg my results stinks...its like sh!t omg -.-!!! wat to do without u? now i m feeling to bad gosh this term sux big time...i got 2 F9 -.- for eng n combine humans omg -.-!!! die le eng leh...failed 3 terms all F9...sad sia at least i pass the other subject but no A...only 2 B4 n 1 C5 2 C6.....so sad....

sigh i been slacking too much n for too long...i guess with u by my side i got alittle brighter n now i m awaken...gonna chiong for my As this eoy....gonna show that i can do it lolx everyone else is not there for me but u r...my light to my destiny....not talk to u for awhile...rad ur blog...sorry to hear all that...just remember i will b there call me kaex?

gonna start working hard sia...that means less computer time...hope i can survive this...wat can i do without u? nth much...

trying my best to get my lvl in RO...sigh these past few days was like RO...need to cut down...sigh wat to do made new friends loh lolx...was asking to c if he could teach me how to do scripting...this way i can make my blog nicer n well get a subject to choose after my Os...

not feel too well....i think i m goin to stop here...finish off wif another quote "nth can change the fact of life but wif u by my side...i dun suffer so much" by me...

Finally we can play RO!! (chapter 8)

2004-08-30T20:26:00.000+08:00

yay neoRO is back online...lolx n i like chiong to get my lvl 99 omg -.-!! i think i need a priest to help me train...den can lvl faster...anyone care to help?

wah tml is teacher day celebration...so sad i din go c my pri sch teachers o well lolx...sigh i think tml b4 training go play parapara lolx...i think i addicted to it le omg den go paly EZ2Dj lolx trashing >.<>GREEN star pillow thingy lolx >.< weee lets go there n kick some butts ^^

hmm anyone can give me thier gunbound account? lolx now like addicted to it again -.- wth i guess i m too bored wif the other games lolx wah i think dun type too much lol need my lvls lolx haha

gonna end wif another quote " its finger licking gd ^^" by KFC muhahaha

Crazy life at the arcade (chapter 7)

2004-08-28T22:36:00.000+08:00

doh havin problems sia 2pid iwebmusic...dun let me log in -.-

o well today was so fun sia lolx early morning go chevron at jurong east to support my sch in the bowling league...sigh sad sia in the end not top 3 but close enough lolx anyways waited until VP came to bowl in the novelty game lolx so 2pid loh 1 game kevin teo n him each bowl 5 frames lame sia...but he not bad sia first throw was a Strike!! lolx -.-!!! tyco lmao but den hor wasted our time loh sianz could have eaten lunch den go marina to play arcade n stay there longer....

got lift from coach...me bryan n eddie got of at marina far sia...eddie went there to bowl but surprisingly there got no lanes den decided to go to the arcade wif us lolx...so unlucky loh go in le den the uncle sitting there saw he wearing sch T den ask him leave lolx...o well den me n bryan wait parapara frenzy -.-!! lolx was tryin out the hard mode although starting abit hard but after awhile could handle it pretty well...at least to songs that r 5 stars n 1 or 2 6 stars songs...lolx ps lowest stars is 4 stars for hard mode -.- c how lousy i m....bryan was like palyin 7 n 8 stars songs lolx so sick -.-...wah lao den plus increase speed omg sick sia but quite fun loh lolx

den about 5+ we left to go victors to play EZ2DJ...den met eddie lolx he only bowled 5 gmes...take 2+hrs omg -.- haha den he went to play wif us...trashed them lolx den came the craziest part lolx we went to try all the hard mix for the easy songs....from 3 stars to 6 stars...den i was like WTH!!...they both help each other loh dne i 1 person there....sick sia pedal 5 buttons n the 2pid...sh!t wat that spinning thing called -.- suddenly brain freeze...anyways i was like WTH lolx at least can combo 3 lolx den in the end still fail haha but had fun loh...

den abuot 530 left marina on my way to Pasir Ris -.- goin my grandma place for dinner -.-!! so far loh omg

o well reach there just in nick of time to eat dinner wif them den stayed there to watch some chinese serial "the heaven sword n dragon sabre" lolx not bad show la but damn 2pid loh the graphics lolx sux like SH!T lolx...

o well gettin tired sia whole day of parapara...end of wif another quote " E equals mc squared" by ???

Wonderful life (chapter 6)

2004-08-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

yoz watsup had a great day lolx sigh but this weekend is goin to kill me -.-!! have to finish my 1500 words research essay -.- its like OMG....like WATEVER...anyways today went out wif Amy long time no c sia din change much

we like went to marina lolx far sia den go there play parapara -.- lolx she not use to the one i playin haha was laughing at her till she so piss LMAO den went to play some hitting game lolx hit 2pid buttons haha hit until hand PAIN -.-!! damn red n swollen loh

den went over to victors to play bowling lolx bowled one game...she was like so FREAK OUT lolx gd game tho 41 if i m not wrong lolx better luck next time heh bowled wif kevin teo n nicholas -.-!! trashing....so sad

o well sorry guys could not find those codes for the song requested but i changed the song to perfect by simple plan hope u guys n gurls out there will like it

keep those request coming in will do my best to get the codes

cheers have a gd day ahead...end wif another quote " i dunno" by me lolx

Welcome to sleepy hollow Yawnz (chapter 5)

2004-08-26T21:48:00.000+08:00

Omg wat a sleepy day -.- the 4 lessons b4 recess was like bedtime sia was like goin to sleep but cant....until chinese lesson lolx slept for 2 whole period...continue during pure geog lesson lolx but she keep waking me up -.-2pid mrs pang...ZzZzZ....i was like dreaming den puff wtf -.-!! ZzZzZ

yawnz...i was sleeping the whole afternoon...den woke up n talk to amy...was planning for tml outing den my father came back -.-!!! WTH din even hear the door open/closing...scared the sh!t out of me -.-...o yea saw the thrialler for the korean movie FACE sick show omg -.-!! scared the hell out of me....AH!!!

was watching SG IDOLS i think Oleanda(dunno how to spell her name -.-) gonna get into the top 10 she damn gd loh >.<>

nth much to write today...too tired to write anyways lolx so gonna stop here =p ending wif another quote " never say die" by energizer lolx

Another Crazy Day (chapter 4)

2004-08-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

ring ring banana phone lolx >.<>.< was like doin so many childish stuff loh

First was in sch i was like go bookshop just to c this soft GREEN pillow thingy >.<> GREEN colour my fav >.<>.< omg lolx damn child like lolx

den later was talkin wif my friend Wang Jian lolx about digimon n pokemon haha he still collect those cards loh lolx den was showing me his rare card wah wat EX RAIKOH the legendary pokemon wow ah -.- lolx all so nice loh wah lao >.< show ="P">.< haha so childish rite? =p

sigh den later during bowling training was listening to my friend music cd -.- lolx first 10 songs r all the digimons cartoon the start n ending songs damn nice loh... lolx =P was listening to it thruout the games i was bowling den i like shrewed the games lolx >.< loh ="P">.<>.<

lolx den after the training went over to the arcade n c my friend play parapara omg sick sia >.<>.<>.<
omg wonder how she plays ? >.<>.<>.<>.<>.< omg lolx

O well gonna b having song dedication on my blog lolx just post the songs u wan on my taggy board ^^ n i try my best to find the codes n play it on me bloggy ^^

missing someone gonna go out le loh on friday >.< haha so exciting =P

ending off wif another quote " I tried my best n i have no regrets " inspired by william hung ^^

Another miserable day (chapter 3)

2004-08-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

I wan to finish this blog peacefully but someone keep poking me -.- squeezed my guts out omg >.< lolx

Sigh just found out that my kor sick so sad >.< go rest up kor GET WELL SOON ^.^ must remember to take ur medicine n drink lots of water n rest lotsss n get MC lolx

omg just saw a very very sick pic >.< http://www.smyw.com/avatar/Decapitated678.jpg pls b warned those who have weak heart n hmm n wat? who cares just go c =P lolx could go to the main website at http://www.smyw.com/ its filled wif sick pic >.<

hmm nth much happen today just went to the 2pid police heritage n c some 2pid photoes etc....lucky i went to J8 to grab some sweet n snacks..was eatin on the bus lolx sigh so bored siawent round looking at sh!t wat is this police stuff got to do wif us like i care -.- omg den my 2pid friend Terence went to sirlute to a statue -.- LMAO haha the guide was like "our next police commisioner" lolx den my friend was like eh give me one more sweet leh...2pid alien boy his eyes damn big sia >.<>.< i very bad hor? =p

argh!! the neoRO not working >.<>.< cna live wifout it

so sianz >..<>sh!t 4got the hotline no. o well lolx just msg me on msn or call me loh lolx

gonna sign off wif another quote"SpongeBob Squarepants rox luv his pants"

missing someone always n 4eva

Another new chapter of my crazy life (chappter 2)

2004-08-23T18:22:00.000+08:00

DING DONG BELL PUSSY IN THE WELL WHO PUT IT IN MR.HORNY DID
Omg i just luv this phrase haha

anyone watch AVP yet? omg i just luv the predator's blood sooooo GREEN my fav colour lolx >.< yet ="P">.<

so scare sia i almost peed in my pants. wat to do omg >.< loh ="P">LUCKY lolx den just walked out of the office loh den go bookshop n buy sweets...hmm that was not as scary as i thot it would b...den the rest of the day was plain boring..sigh

2pid neoRO not working again...the 2pid server guy went on vacation for 1 wk at south caroline sigh wat to do now that i can tplay RO? i guess i shud go train up my gb skills lolx =P

hmm gonna go play gb may pop back here later so cool to actually give this blog thing a try lolx =P

missing someone sigh wat to do wif out that piece of puzzle missing in my heart >.<

i think i may stop breathing anything omg >.<>.<>

Crazy but happy life i guess lolx

2004-08-22T23:36:00.000+08:00

OMG!! wat is goin on in my life...everything is so boring...so confusing...so OMG...sigh
cant type much now its like 11pm omg...n my mom is like kp omg sigh but watever all over le wait for punishment on monday sigh...crazy life i had
O well signing off for today gonna go slp since the 2pid private server not working
O well nite mates gonna update more often i guess since i m so bored >.<